What will b will be...

2010-09-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

tired at work. tired of everything. tired. tis is not healthy. y are there so many patients!!! it is not a hotel!!!

:)

2010-07-24T23:55:00.001+08:00

travelling is fun... i like planning for trips too. so exciting.. after europe, next up in the pipeline is somewhere near... somewhere that starts with a 'B'..

Religions

2010-06-15T23:19:00.001+08:00

Read yahoo news, learnt about the latest religion saga. the same religion again. sigh. someone posted this under comments, which i agree.

By Mr Piya Tan, a Buddhist,
Stories we live by

You name your God, I name mine. This has been going on since we first wondered why the sun rises, why there are stars in the night sky, why the wind blows and water flows, why we are here, why we die. It was a time long before science and human awakening. When people could not find the right answers for such things, they tell stories about it.

Some thinkers say that the kind of God that a tribe or group worships reflects their common struggles and hopes, and this story holds them together. But now our various communities throughout the world are becoming more globalized. We keep bumping into one other’s Gods.

In our global community, we can see a few interesting reactions to the God stories. Firstly, there are those who claim “my God” is better than yours: they are like selfish children; it is best to leave them alone. One great weakness of such a story-group is that their lives are moulded and guided by differences rather than by similarities. They live in a black-and-white world where “friends” are those who think and live like them; those who are different are “enemies”; those who fit into neither category are “strangers” to be converted, appropriated. There is a lot of measuring of humanity here, as if it is a measurable commodity.

Then, there are some God story tellers who see a commonalty in our need for a higher purpose: it does not really matter which God, they are wont to say. The story matters more than the story-teller, even the story-maker. Let us walk humbly with our God, they preach. This is a more empowering approach, as it allows everyone of us to be truly friendly to everyone else. There is much less measuring of humanity here. The main problem, however, is that there can be a lot of superficiality here, like a nicely packaged box, or one with layers of nice wrappings, but the content is really paltry, or nothing really.

The third group simply says, hey, these are just stories, great stories, but please look for their meanings. Stories may divide us, their spirit brings our hearts closer together. Let us live by the spirit, what the stories are really trying to tell us. The fact is that we cannot live by stories alone: we must live life as it comes. Stories may be about what the world can be or should be, but life is what things really are. So we need a reality check.

If we are truly honest with ourselves, we are likely to notice that no matter how “perfect” the story we live by may be, the ending is not always what we expect it to be. The thing about stories is that once we know their ending, it becomes boring; we then forget what the story is really about. Or we invent our own ending to the story; in which case, we don’t really need the story, after all.
There is something much better than any story, even better than all the stories that can ever be told. That is, to look deep into ourselves. What do we notice? We might notice, if we look deeply enough, that we have a lot of thoughts rushing through our minds — these are our great story tellers.

Our minds are the greatest story tellers. They are often very self-centred story tellers, for the simple reason our minds are, as a rule, unaware of other minds. If we look even deeper, we will see that our minds or hearts have lives of their own. We really have no control over them, and this is what the stories are about. They are our attempts at harnessing the wildness and wilderness that are our hearts. The God story seems the best story to do so.

But let us look deeper into ourselves. While our minds differentiate us with our stories, there is something that is intimately “us” from day one, something that runs the same way in all of us, whether we are human, beast, or alien. No matter which universe or multiverse we are in: we breathe, and we all breathe the same way. To breathe is to live, to live is to breathe.
Our perspective of life is inextricably and essentially linked to the way we breathe. The more violent we are, the heavier we tend to breathe. To breathe is also to slow-burn ourselves up, as it were. As such, the more violently we breathe, the faster is the burning, the more violent our lives become.

Even in physical exercise, there comes a time when our breathing flows harmoniously with our bodies. Then body and mind act as one. Yet, there are times when we need to simply sit comfortably still and forget about the body for a while. There is just the breath, getting ever more peaceful. It comes to such still point, a radiant stillness, that the joy is unspeakable.

This is the well-spring of religion: it is the realizing of our true selves. We seem to be just a blink in the vast moonless cloudless night sky, amongst billions of other twinkling stars. What beautiful stars, what blissful space! This is the religion that needs no converts, that can never have followers. For we have come to the journey’s joyful end. We’re truly home.

PiyaTan ©2010

2010-01-24T00:23:00.001+08:00

Lyrics...

2010-01-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

ended CDC attachment. Quite an eye opener in e past 2 weeks. Many young HIV members, screened and newly Dx either before NS or before ORD. Bisexual, MSM etc. Old man who ve gotten t a few yrs mostly through CSW.

To me, choice of partners is a lifestyle choice. Felt sorry for some of them. They are as innocent as another person who caught a flu from ther partner. Initially, all of them r so normal looking. Like any of our friends. How hard muz it b for them to carry such a heavy secret with them ard. Imagine, teenagers younger than me..
Tts in the clinic.

The ward has some end stage patients.. All sorts of complications hound them, refusing to budge. Spiking fever like nobody's business. I got to noe Mr X, a long term IVDA, member of coz, who was prev residing at a halfway house. IVDA is a bit wasteful la. But he talked to me n i felt pitiful for him. Lodging is a BIG problem for these patients if family support is low. They live lifes without a fixed residence. Shuttling between hospitals (shld there b an acute infection) and whichever halfway house or volunteary housing that hav space to take them in.. Mr X was complaining to me of the restrited life he was place under at his new lodging.. His prev loding that he liked that some probs w him hence he was not placed there after his discharge this time..

sigh.. i hope that these patients will take god care of themselves. guai guai take their ARTs, don miss doses, practice public responsibility. Good luck n jiayou!

Alone

2010-01-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

I went to e temple tdy, alone.
Went there to let go of some stuff.
Then I walked to e coffeeshop down tt corridor
sat there n ate lunch at 5, alone.
then I walked to e busstop,
I tot I saw someone n tt made my heart skipped a beat;
I wave at e person.
Lucky it was a stranger. Lucky..
Better nt appear at tt moment
I can't handle it.
Then I went home, at peace.

2010-01-18T20:53:00.002+08:00

A long time ago before I stopped actively blogging, I ever wondered how nice it would b if I can jus connect a wire to my head n sync watever I wan to say into words n post it on blog.. nt realli thee yet bt close now wy new I phone!! Hee. Su0pose to get it for work purpose shun Bianfor leisure. Nw I can really post as I walk.. Save some time hopefully can study one more chap tis way. Haha. Found a good bubble tea shop at bedok interchange recently. San told me bout it. My 3rd cup so far coz it's nt cheap n interchange nt near for me.. Good also if nt waste $$  k hopefully w tis tea go home hav eneegy chiong. Jiayou. Two more mths!!! Cannot upload photos. Hmm try again next time

2010-01-06T22:23:00.005+08:00

it was a merry merry xmas at work.. pre-regs rockz!!! all of us planned hard, cooperate w lots of chemistry, n played hard too!

i won the hamper that i was suppose to give out! hohoho.. pretty pretty picnic basket!! i can go picnic loh!!!

i hope i can stay n grow healthily w ttsh n its ppl.. hopez.. brains where r u!!!

2009-11-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

i love the underwaters. jus saw video. tot to share.

when i was young, i m fascinated by wats in the deep seas n oceans and wats up there in the deep universe.. like to imagine wat are there residing in those places... aliens i don noe. but apparently in the deep waters more n more new creatures are being found.. the deep seas are deep n dark, no doubt dangers lurking, there's still so much unknown..

who noes, there may realli be loch ness.. my childhood fantasy till now.. let me see one, jus a baby one will do.

2009-11-28T23:29:00.003+08:00

took leave to study viva, ended up wasting time. i tink i've alreadi forgotten how to study. v tired, i even took a nap, which i seldom do unless i m sick. if i were to study like i did now during my sch yrs, i wonder whether i will even get into uni. haha. i think compared to last time, i m more kan kai. haha no urgency yet..

i wan shopping, i wan to go fly kite, i wan to watch new moon, i wan to play badminton.... anything but study. after next week... quick...

2009-11-22T17:04:00.002+08:00

some happy tots.. checked recently w the pharmacist in charge of planning roster, she told me a confirmed pharmacist 1 yr got 21 days leave.. woa.. i dunno wats e 'market rate' now. but 21 days sounds like a lot to me. haha. maybe i mountain tortoise, maybe otehrs are getting more than me. but i m happy liao.. but this year, pre-reg yr don hav so many la.. 12 days over the 9mths only.. n i guess most of us will take it to study for our tests n exams whihc are impossible to study if working..

next big exam on 3rd nov, me taking 2 days leave next week to study.. how useful i dunno.. hopefully productive bah..

but like an abscess that needs debridement, there is so many things to clear before i can realli sit down to study. hence that translates to 'i don think i can finish'.. woahaha.
there will b a way out, somewhere, somehow

2009-11-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

i m too lazy. even jus by a click of the button.. i guess no one reads this anymore... haha even friends who used to ask me update don remind me anymore.. i guess my bad habit of 3 min excitement has once again die down.

year end again. planning for xmas party at work.

looking forward to my sis 21st bday party.

i cant believe this year is gg to end soon. so much happened this year. as a person, so much changes took place. i see myself morph into a working adult. i start to see my future more clearly. as my friend n i were chatting bout the next candle onto our cake, the topic both of us were discussing was so foreign jus a few mths ago.. so much has changed.

changed for the better i hope.

2009-10-14T22:03:00.001+08:00

快乐也许可以很简单。我希望它不难。希望在忙碌中有依靠，让我快乐，让我有继续努力的勇气。

2009-10-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

long hair.. no time to cut.. actually it's more of dunno what to do with it..
perm to make my face look bigger?
rebond and end up not being able to tie my hair and sweat to death in the wards?
or to cut short then lament about how much hair i've cut for the next 48h as though it will never ever grow back?

i wan to dye, but to sit a few hours away in a salon during my precious 1 1/2 day weekend seems a bit too wasteful for now.. (my friend said she was reading notes while the stylist did her hair. good suggestion. but her colour ended up redder than expected.. there goes tt idea)

so now i bun it up.. BORING!!!

2009-09-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

this bday will b spent studying.. jus got back frm work at 11pm. but got 3 surprises and laughs jus within a short 1 hr. thank u all:)

k k go find answers to my questions.... doing heart. weak heart.. i wanna make it strong.. pump pump pump..

2009-08-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat happened to my blog setup.. its weird.. the whole format in the editing post page is screwed up. I cant add images for a long time.. the icon vanished.. there is nothing for me to click on to do so..

had been a hectic 2 and half months so far. and finally, i m suffering from down-time.. Flu these few days. todae cannot take it liao, went see doc. Order meds from the doctor. haha. Nowadays when i go see doctor, its quite irritating sometimes. I roughly have to know what meds to ask from the doctor coz when they noe bout ur job, they expect u to tell them wat u wan. Simple meds i m still ok.. but when sick hav to think, argh. Need the free meds, need the mc, bo bian, 'hi doc'

funny thing is my partner, mindy also sick!! haha both of us down with URTI.. but she hav fever i do not. i hav sore throat she does not. the rest of the symptoms are the same liao.. She both of us go see doc tog todae. got mc tog this morning. but both of us left at onli ard 3pm coz had to clear some work..

After we got the prescription from the doc, we made our way down to the pharmacy to get our meds. I self created an account for myself, type in the doc orders for the meds, confirmed the orders, packed my own meds, checked my own meds, and as a rule, ask a pharmacist to double check n dispense to me. So cool rite, how often patients DIY till like tt.. hhaaa.

我是病人.....

2009-08-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

worked tdy. but it was quite fun! haha. worked w my preceptor n another 3 other pharmacist. with me, is my friend cum colleague, entian. hmm 6 of us managed to supply the meds needed by 13 levels of wards on time at 2pm!! was a feat i muz say. coz i was told by other pharm techicians tt usually Sundays n PH r v busy one. somehow, ppl tend to get discharge more and so more will get admitted. was told tt if i m unlucky, may drag on till 4+... but tdy the pharmacists on duty were realli v chop chop n efficient! *claps n cheers* wah, tdy quite a lot of unexpected things happened still can ping ping an an in the end n on target somemore.. heng ah!

i getting more n more pei fu of my preceptor.. realli zai n nt ur typical pharmacist. something in her tts different. may b a blessing to b under her.. still early. will give full conclusion 7mths later :p

2009-08-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

my first official off day on this coming sat.. happy. at last sat hav nothing work related gg on.. thinking of how to spend it.. mayb go out a while then b home to clear my work.. working on National Day though.. bo bian.. got first aid course on 3 other sundays.. haha. welcome to the real world :/

2009-07-25T20:16:00.002+08:00

Completed my first 6weeks rotation at Retail.. learned quite a lot of stuff there n i love the interaction with all the customers.. maybe is i lucky, didnt realli meet with many difficult customers.. i love my job!!!

at my half days in Outpatient Pharmacy, it was also very exciting and fun.. a lot of new things to learn.. not only the medications side (which i m totally not good at all), its also the operational side.. the processing, the interventions.
Standing is realli tired. Pharmacists hav almost no chance to sit at all.. (at least in Retail n OP). my legs got so sore n tired after 4 days of wearing sandals w heels tt i couldnt walk much the following 2 days.. And guess wat, after that episode, i got to know that my feet got high arch, hence the imbalance in pressure. AFTER 22 yrs.. hmm. Since for 22 yrs i din noe n it din cause much harm, i shall remain it that way then.

Next stop is Drug Info Service.. 6 weeks. Hmm this rotation, i will get to sit till my butt get pressure sores i suppose. Will be staying whole day in office, enriching my little brain and learning how to deal with qns by doc, patients, nurses who call in.. Phone operator. Hopefully, i get to catch up on my knowledge side in this 6 weeks.. I cant be a pharmacist who is good in interaction n soft skills yet hav no knowledge to offer or empower others.. that would b so sad..

Looking forward.. Hopefully, being a pharmacist is wat i m realli suited for. Hope i hav found my true calling

2009-07-16T21:59:00.001+08:00

hav been doing checking since last week. but todae being given the confidence to check n push out without the need of another round of double checking.. happy~ slowly becoming independent. needs more time. :p

2009-07-09T21:08:00.003+08:00

at last convo tdy. marks the end of everything. ended the 17yrs journey of structured learning. went up the stage to take the scroll, for that few moments, we studied 17yrs for it. like what candice who sat beside me tdy said, 'i cant believe we studied jus to get this'. sad but true. happy day n another mad day of cam-whoring.

nice that my family, xiaoyi, n zy came. zy din make it to see me go up stage though. but nvm, noe tt uve rushed down asap. At least, u took photos w me. see u rush to n fro also feel bad.. but v glad u came. thanks dear for ur effort..

also a big thanks for all who cant come but sms-ed me. i noe u guys r busy, but at least have heart, i appreciate. no matter how far r u guys, i noe i can depend on u :)
A big thanks for all my friends whom i hav known over the years. i studied n played with u guys, today is convo day.

2009-07-09T00:32:00.007+08:00

someone complain i din update blog... hahaa.... k la k la.. u noe de ma. rite??

tml is convo day, so i figured better to collate my life so far recently before tml photos come flowing in again.. hee

k wat happen recently in my life??
hmm, bout 2 weeks ago, i went bird park with dear. coz he got routinely go blood donation so there is a event for free sightseeing at Jurong Bird Park. n so we went.. actually don wan to kena rip de.. end up we still bought a $22 photo.. (yes, those tourist take kind, but very nice leh.. tats y lo)

then last sat went pharmacy grad dinner @ Hilton Hotel. quite fun!! its like a close-knitted family dinner. v cosy n everyone who was being called on stage were v sporty.. lol..

recently becoz of H1N1, we hav been packing a lot of masks for patients, for customers.. i ve packed like 5000x2 masks now... hhaa. can u imagine...

my mask-packing partner, xiuting :) cheers!

tdy dear's bday. celebrated w him yest nite.. dinner at Mellben Seafood at Ang Mo Kio. a crab speciality zi char stall.. veri good crabs they hav.. yum yum.. we had the Top Top recommendation. Crab bee hoon soup. the soup v creamy n thick.. yummy!!!!!!!!

other random photos

my mj winning tiles.. haha... so heng. :p

mindy n her flu n hep B jab.. plus tdy one more-Chickenpox jab.. poor thing

2009-07-02T20:19:00.001+08:00

sad.. did something 'wrong' todae.. or rather i din 'do' something.. sad.. jus received notice.. tml hav to go face the music..

next thurs commencement, no leave. they onli give half day.. sian rite.. sigh.. trying to push for leave.. but wats the chances of 17ppl on leave tog.. SMALL..

2009-06-17T22:33:00.001+08:00

3 days onli.. but physically tired alreadi. so fast. jiayou. looking forward for weekend to clear work. although i m technically left w onli 1.5 days of weekend.

2009-06-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

today is first day of work... i cant believe i m working already. Like wat my sis say, 'eh, u r WORKING already leh. i cant believe it.' scary. i m scared too. so fast.

today is orientation, quite relaxed.. but as we go along, we r actuallly being loaded with lots of future work!! its quite a handful.. pray hard i'll survive.

2009-06-12T00:56:00.002+08:00

back from KL tonite.. i m so tired... coz i m sick.. flu-ish. scully is 'that' flu.. sluggish the whole of todae.. went Genting also not a lot of mood to emjoy.. had a headache most of e day todae. felt as though my brain got detached and knocked onto my skull whenever i walked.. tangling tangling..

hc hosted us for these 3 days. reallin grateful to her n family.. esp her dad. bring us ard for good food, good shopping and drove us ard almost everywhere and anytime. had veri good penang laska, wonton noodles, chicken rice balls, chendol and bak kut teh.. i escaped getting fat in taiwan.. but my downfall in M'sia instead. haha. constantly baobao..

shopping is GOOD too!!! the power of Sing dollar in M'sia.. Same price as Singapore jus that prices stated there r n RM.. shuang. brought a lot of work clothes.. Veri affordable prices.. N dear sponsored me a pair of shoes.. hee coz he liked it too. haha. k ki noe i jus got 5 pairs frm taiwan.. hmm... i m guilty as charge.. cant explain for my actions...

hee. enough of fun. work starting next week lo.... boo hoo boo~~~~~~~~

2009-06-06T00:53:00.005+08:00

came home from taiwan, forgot to collate my shoppings to take photo. did that yest instead. i did my best to round up all the things i bought. not a lot ma.. My conclusion: i din buy THAT much rite?? haha. i bought more foodstuff than its shown here.. coz some kena eaten liao. haha

2009-06-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

worked for wyeth for today n tml. looking forward, next tue go KL :)

Photos of Taiwan collated alreadi.. now sorting.. even harder work. Coz all of us were over enthu when taking photos.. too many photos of the same flower, bird or view.. haha.. choosing the best photos.. Still at DAY 1. I hav 11 days... hohoho.

Back!!

2009-06-01T21:49:00.005+08:00

i m missing taiwan.. the weather is so good, so cooling unlike here.. the people r so nice n polite n helpful...

just finish collating my travel diary of my taiwan trip. picked up this habit from the YEP expedition i went in '07. nice to write down tots n sentiments of daily happenings so that some time later when the memories of taiwan is no longer in my short-term memory, i can still refresh it whenever i feel like it..

this trip was VERY eventful. guess its the most memorable trip for most of us in the team. the first few days was tough, many unexpected stuff occured n 'bad' luck followed... some of us couldnt believe it, some of us jus LAUGHED it off.. i guess all our laughing helped, as some bad luck turned out to be blessings in disguise..

One regret is that adeline cant join us in the end after so much time, effort n $$.. sigh...

10 day Taiwan Trip!!!!
Day 1
From Taoyuan Airport, take train to hualien.. Check-in C'est Jeune Hotel.. a very affordable and small hotel.. service is personal n veri friendly. Its a art-like hotel. its small lobby has a small display of artworks. cartoon characters. bfast there is good too!

Day 2
Bad luck starts. just 2 day before, wl confirmed w our tour guide of our booking. Early morning 9am, we called her, she says she forgot n is nt free... HUH??!!!
Lucky she is responsible enough to ask another 2 tour guides to stand in for her.
started our day late. but our first blessing came about. The 2 guy tour guides were veri nice n all of us liked their approach. Compared to the female tour guide who took over us at night (she was veri bo chap)

Went to Taroko Gorge, cleared limited places due to time. But believed tt we've seen some of the best. All of us loved 水莲洞. Imagine a dark cave (need torch n poncho), natural mountain water falling frm above. natural wild wild wet. experienced tt wonderful place after clearing 7 tunnels and walked v far.. worth it :)

After trying to contact adeline for v long n failed to do so, at last she contacted us. We were outside a tunnel, if we walked in, there will b no more reception. so we stayed outside, hoping ade can quickly contact us and we can help her solve her problem. Reception was v weak. Imagine trying to get reception outside a tunnel, out in nature, on a mountain, a steep cliff beside. Haha, was realli an exp. :) Lucky the 2 tour guides were v helpful, without asking, they helped us make long-dist calls using their hp that surprisingly were the onli ones w 1 bar reception.
At last prob solved. *HAPPY*

evening, it began raining. had to skip some places. a bit disappointed but cant b helped. Tour guides brought us to the fish port for sashimi instead. It was v good!!! fresh n cheap.

too bad we didnt get to play w fireworks there.. was a miscommunication. haiz.
tried the recommended food there. some were nt bad some were so-so.

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Day 3
Left Hualien. Rmb the 2 nice tour guides and we were very keen to take on their service again when we reach taiepi. Head for Chiayi, to go Alishan first.

Day 3-5
At Alishan. a place near heaven.. Veri cooling. natural aircon whole day round. we had a tea plantation at our doorstep.. whole house was ours. 2-storey. stayed at small swiss homestay. Charlies was a great guy.

Make a Smilebox scrapbook

Day 5-11
Back to Taipei. tried almost all big nght markets. Tonghua which is jus 5 mins frm our place. Raohe and Shilin. tried a lot of good food. Shopped a lot. changed $$ in taiwan too.. on the last day left w onli NT13 (~S60cents), hav to depend on yj to yang wo..

explored out of taipei. engaged the help of the 2 wonderful guides again (Mr Yao ZhengCheng and Mr He RenJie). by then, they were alreadi conveniently known by us as Mr Lame n Mr Nice respectively. Ultimate fun combi. with transport, we proceed w our initally planned places like chiufen, shih-fen, danshui, yeliu, keelung, jinguashi with much ease. They even bought us to places of greater fun.. Went Yingge to learn n make pottery.. (our masterpieces will b here end on June, waiting....) Sounds like we did a lot. it was all in 2 days... anyone interested in engaging their services can sms me. haha. i hav their contacts.. coz they jus started the services themselves so need a lot of recommendations, all of us 9 felt that they were sincere n fun, n veri affordable too.. they went the extra mile for us, n we were v grateful for it.

the rest of the times, we were out on our own exploring taipei city. went to 我猜 recording.. damn exciting n fun. nearly couldnt get in, lucky can still sit front row.. Jacky wu still gave us try the pies made by the contestant for 人不可貌相 :) nice!!!

Make a Smilebox photobook

2009-05-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

2 more days!!! i m waiting, waiting. did most of the packing tdy. quite happy w the result. hope i haven forgot any impt stuff.

as i wait for my hols w much anticipation n excitement, i jus realised through the blog that a friend at far is encountering some prob. this friend haven replied my last email since quite long ago which is unlikely gg by the usual freq. Now i m worried. its something big. yet i cant help. and there are no news from this friend. yet i m here waiting to go off for my hols. Hey friend, quick reply me.. I m waiting too!! cheer up k!

2009-05-15T00:38:00.004+08:00

went mapuku @ Tampines One for lunch todae. Food is not bad. Mache style. Free-sitting which i quite like. Each section of the dining area has a different theme.. settled at one place but was tempted by another sections, ended up changing place. haha

whole day mj todae.. played 3 rounds since afternoon till 11 plus jus now. so tired.
won quite a bit todae. It's like my first time winning a fair bit? so quite happy. i think my luck is realli not bad todae. happy~ i was shocked by myself quite a few times tdy too. haha. for the 1st round, the other 3 players jus cant believe my luck. haha. now i understand the shuang feeling. :) tired. sleeping soon.. cycling tml...

halfway done w packing..

2009-05-12T22:43:00.011+08:00

since after exams, life been good:) hav been enjoying life. sleep late, go out, meeting up with friends, spend decent time with dear, have good food.

I am now excited with my taiwan trip. all gals came to my place yest to finalise the itinerary. Hahah. truthfully, this is my first time being so hands on in planning. I think last yr planning for hk w kat, angie n hx is like a training for me. i was more sideline learning. This time, i m definitely more involved. Enjoy planning. Will certainly play a much more active role in planning in future. :)As i plan, the more i read, the more excited i become. Sense of achievement when everything flows and is nice nice. Muz go through the whole thing to see if it realli works though. haha

over the weekend, met 13yao for dinner to celebrate sou's belated belated bday. went to the korean BBQ place at far east. the side dishes are not free-flow but are available for refill. whatever it means, go figure. haha. I tink the waitress repeated the exact sentence thrice.
went to T3 TCC next, had a good time catching up with all. it was our usual secret-sharing time. FUN!!

Pomerganate Orange Soda. Very refreshing. Nice

Then on sun went to buy luggage w dear. Went to Tam1 foodcourt for lunch first. wanted to try the roast meat from Restoran Selayang. Was on the news coz it is opened by actors terrence cao and another actor (forget his name). It boostes a family recipe. I so wanted to try it. I tried and definitely was not disappointed. Foodcourt price, great satifaction. They have 2 types of chilli. One is the chicken rice kind another is the roast duck chilli paste. Try both. Both are so rich in aroma that u can jus eat it alone w rice. haha i sound so much like a foodie writing a food blog now.. :) but good things muz share.

Also went to orchard. when was the last time i have the time to stop by, absorbed into the drums and vibrancy of performers by the streets. ah, this is life!

went ah ma house at nite to celebrate Mothers' day. i bought a nice cake too!!

2009-05-08T00:52:00.007+08:00

yet another long time since last post.

And yeah!!! i finished my exams!!!!!! woohoo~

finished yest and after that i went tampines 1. Haven been there since it opened, so went there yest to open my eyes. bought a pair of lychee martinis coz they are very pretty... haha. typical gal. although i m not a huge fan of pink, these bottles were cute so i got them. :) (just felt like spending $$ after exams)

had lunch at Ma Maison yest with hc, mq n yq. was a treat after exams. :) hee. the photos are the prove of the good food we had. let the photos explain.. ha hc did took the food photos quite well huh. haha

over lunch yest, the idea of gg for a buffet dinner surfaced . And so off we went to a buffet dinner tonight. went to Crown Price Hotel at Terminal 3, Airport. AZURE. sad yq n mindy cant join us. yq, u missed out A LOT TONIGHT!! next time muz come w us k!! A very good offer, by the use of UOB or CITIBANK card, its one-for-one. International buffet. Got lots of variety. its realli good. I think each of us ate like 15-20 prawns (fresh + drunken prawns at least) esp mq. haha. it was realli veri fresh. the prawns were sweet so were the scallops. Its not easy to get sweet scallops la. i think, our table ate a lot of seafood. a bit kua zhang tonight but it was realli worth it. The food n dessets were fantastic. Pre-booking is needed. service a bit slow but if u manage to get their attention, its nt that bad.

went ttsh to sign contract this morning. i m almost a staff there liao. exciting. Working with a few good friends also. Hope life will be enriching and at the same time fun.. :) look forward :)

but first taiwan, here i come.. :)

2009-04-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

haha long time since i last blogged. yet again. guilty as charged.

tonight went dinner with ac kids club plus ac, vivianne n ky.

i jus reach home, jus bathe. surprising
a dinner which jus 6hrs ago, most of us were dreading to attend and hoping to eat, spend as much as possible then leave. good bye good day. till we meet again.

surprising. we chatted and stayed till late. over dinner, some interesting conversations did arise and the atmosphere was better than expected. thanks to ky. saw a different side of him today. more human-like.

went mache@vivo. first time had the chance to try almost everything. we jus took everything. my table had rostti, cheese, chicken, garlic pork saugages, calamari, 1/2 pork knunkle, smoken salmon w roast chicken crepe, pizza, mixed mushrooms w potatoes. and that was our main course onli. 4 gals. haha. trying to help him spent coz we figured prob he has no place to spend his salary. and we shld reward ourselves after all the hard work..

for desserts we had almost all kinds of cakes they had. one of everything. i counted. we had 10 kinds of bakes + ice creams. omg. fat. now that i type out, the amt we ate was quite scary.. to make it better, mayb it would help to say that the cakes were shared among 8 of us?? haha. chatted a lot tonite. gain a lot of new insights n knowledge also. hmm. but some things still cant pry out of him. so tight-lipped. oh well, but still this dinner realli marks the end of fyp. plus my article has been sent to Journals of Clinical Oncology for review le. hope it gets through n published then everything will end on a good note.

i m just ONE day away from my last day in school. I cant believe it. last day of official school. As in REAL SCHOOL. after so many years, arent i waiting for this day to come? yet, i don feel immense joy or feelings. i guess its mixed n hence nullified. shall go sort out how i shld feel. haha.

tml pharmacy year 4 are gg to end on a high note. we r gg to jog+walk for a fundraising event for pharm. haha wat a way to end the last day of sch. HAHA school life. these things we do that make school life memorable and stories to tell future genrations. isnt it? :)

2009-04-02T16:10:00.003+08:00

hey hey!!!
yipee yaya yipee yipee ya,
yipee yaya yipee yipee ya,
yipee yaya yipee yipee yaya,
yipee yipee yaya yipee yipee ya.

FYP has officially ended!!!!! woots~
i'm so happy, i'm so glad
yest was the poster display. hee i got 2nd placing for my poster for my category. was a tie with cons, hee at least we didnt throw ac's face. but jl still up him.. hahahaha. was veri happy that it has ended. i tink all my comrades will feel the same.

haven felt such freedom in a long time already. have been imagining this day for so long. at last its here. the amt of tears, sweat and frustration over it.

As ac promised, he's gg to bring us all out for a meal. no budget.. haha. date set. place tbc by us!! muhahaa.. hc suggest $100/pax.. evil..but we don mind i guess...

Many thanks to all

2009-03-31T23:04:00.002+08:00

Better to put as a seperate post. if not too long le. hahahaha :p

I realli would like to thank so many people in helping me:

Thanks AC, for reading n vetting n stimulating my mind non-stop. very agonising, yes. its a love-hate rel.

Thanks Mindy, for so much of ur help. you r realli an angel in my life. you always help to enlighten me whenever i m down. its my fyp and u hav urs to worry bout to, yet u always render help whenever i need it. Don think its minimal, it meant a lot to me. Really. :)

Thanks hc, you r another great help! thanks for agreeing to help me during that horror period. Lucky got you, i can calm down and brace through it all.

Thanks shaun, thanks for offering to help me read my thesis. Hee i noe you were very busy then, yet u still tried ur best to give me ur valuable comments. Realli appreciated it. Comments from chicago, plus from a future budding neuroscientist. haha, it is my honour.

Thanks cons, i tink it was horror of horror for both of us when we got that terrible email. i also dunno whether to say luckily or unluckily, i got you for company... hey isnt it a concidence, we got another email together again tonite! :) lucky its good news this time. :) hard work paid off!!!!! yoohoo! :p

Thanks to my sis too, she helped me read my 1st draft, help me go through my poster tog, listen to me present like 3 times, help me prepare cue cards.. your bday this year will b good. :)

And last but not least, thanks to my dear. He is the one who hear me whine, complain, tahan my sullen face n lifeless form this 9 months. Thanks for all your support this while. Thanks for reading my drafts numerous times and be my audience who comment and time my presentation so many times. i think you r quite well-verse in CAM now too. :p

journey of fyp

2009-03-31T22:28:00.003+08:00

One MORE DAY!!! yeah! fyp will be finally officially over... tml is our poster presentation.
sun n mon, i went to print poster. went 2 days coz i found some glitches. oh well, lucky i end up print one poster only.. if not veri waste $$. the feeling when seeing my own poster being printed was good. Marks the end of fyp. Quite proud of it although i realli saw many nice nice ones.. i c so many of my classmates there la..i tink that shop jus earn our money jiu happy liao. haha.

tdy when i pinned up my poster, it was another kind of fufilling feeling. i think many of my friends felt the same towards their poster also. Its almost like a crystallisation of the efforts. I like so many posters.. there were like 60 posters and most of them quite pretty..

i like mindy's one the most.. Gal, hee urs i still like the most! :)
tml will be an exiciting day. hopefully, after tml no more fyp.. actually after my presentation on sat, i was on hol mood le. haha. think i din perform as well as i expected for myself but don care liao. it has been so many months since i stone, so many months since i last watch tv few hours at one go, so many months since i last went shopping, n so many months since i don hav that heavy stone in me making me lost all the energy to laugh with all my heart.

the old me is BACK!! like a spell i've been under for months, at last its lifted. i feel alive again. Is this the type of fairy tale in this modern era? anyway, i feel happy. i am happy. I still hav a few tests before my final finals exam coming soon, ya ard that corner again. but i don care. this few days are for recharging!!! yipee~

i feel liberated again! Haha, i tot it will be so hard to wait till this day.. so glad that all the horrid stuff are over for now...

FYP was a learning exp. i would say that the learning curve was quite steep. for blur ppl like me, who like to add extra stones ahead of myself, so that i can trip upon later, life was harder. but realli, i tink all of us hav matured over this 9 months.. the bond we forged over ac fyp kids' club is something to be treasured.

2009-03-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

This is the week..

if i survived this week well, i think i have attained another level..

There's no lack of challenges in life.. they are all just round that corner.

Lin

2009-03-22T11:50:00.002+08:00

i dreamt of my prof again last nite. Dreamt had he sent me an email saying that my poster got prob... oh man... when will this end.. he cant even let me hav a good, peaceful sleep...

recently, i've been very tired. physically and mentally. last nite i went to bed at 11.15. mum even suggested that maybe i shld go do a blood test to see whats wrong. hmm, no need la ah. needles = pain.

Trust a pharmacist to say that. tsktsk..

cant believe i'm gg to be a pharmacist soon. How many lifes will be in my hands that i hav to protect. woohoo.. glad that i'm becoming one. Will do good for the society. i promise. :)

2009-03-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

When one becomes too busy with everything, everything seems to glazed past. Nothing seems important. I hate it tat i am taking IMPORTANT THINGS so UNIMPORTANTLY.

I wan to stop and take check. I cant. I know i hav been missing out a lot of life. I wan to laugh like before again, i cant. I wan to find back wats important to me. My life, my friends, my cup of Starbucks coffee, but i cant. I cant even rmb the time i last sat down for coffee with a small grp of friends discussing life. i don even hav time to catch a breath and the wind just forcefully push me forward.

somethings i noe after its missed, you cant get it back. The feeling is no longer there. i know. Women's sixth sense is not there for without a purpose.

when i wan to lament, i dunno who to go to. Everyone has their own set of frustration which i don wish to add on. I can imagine myself lament.. things are so gross that i actually don feel like mentioning.. but u noe, when you don say, it jus keep gnawing ur insides..

I think my blog has become too pessimistic to read. If it is, read my older posts instead, i think they may b happier.

actually, i think my table of friends all hav this kind of feeling which has escalated this semester.. i wonder whether anyone wrote bout it? Did anyone talked about it?

2009-03-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

maybe its wat fyp did to me,
maybe its coz i'm in yr 4 last sem alreadi
i think i m more kan de kai..
i m more shui bian.. more slack n less demanding on myself
i reach self-equilbrium within a shorter time..
i think this is bad..
its tis kind of mindset that makes ppl complacent with the veri least they hav.
mayb i shld change,
mayb i will change.
after fyp..

PS: med counseling tml.. can b quite jialat kind. tdy then seriously start studying. usually will start early. but tdy slack till night night then start.. now notes in front of me, i m blogging. still got 2 entries.. you tell me la. hahaha... omg. m i the hui lin u know?? i wonder?

2009-03-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

In my 4 yrs of tertiary education, today is the last prac of the entire course.. made pellet coating today... veri fun, jus like home econs and arts where we mix our own colour to coat our pellets and pack into capsules.

Probably the last prac in my life, friends n i forget to take a proper picture. should hav. wasted. lucky last time got take a few.. haha. fun pracs i had in this 4 yrs.. got usual titration, also got more specialised ones like tdy's tab coating and dosage form prep...

hmm actually i still hav med counseling coming up x 4 weeks. done in lab also but its not hand-on get dirty kind. hmm.. that is the challenging part..

2 more weeks... its all gonna be over!!!!!! April april quick come come!!

Brief update

2009-03-13T00:04:00.003+08:00

1) I have handed in my final thesis

2) By the 1st April, everything to do with FYP will be settled (hopefully). thats the official date. but there may be unofficial stuff...

3) I am gg TAIWAN!!! Booked tickets. Going w 9 other friends. Free n Easy

4) Planning is not easy... but fun! :)

5) I got my job!!! actually it was quite some time le.. just din manage to spread the news.. to all who is graduating and haven gotten a job, jiayou!! The industry wants you!! don worry! tough outside, but u'll find ur place :)

6) My stress level is cyclical. Now is the trough, so i'm normal, for now.

7) I wan to slack. i miss stoning and slacking away my time

2009-03-01T00:04:00.001+08:00

so fast, its march alreadi... so busy nowadays... veri draining... one week have past... i m onli halfway up this steep mountain... jiayou. i can do it...

mental strong, body weak?
body strong, mental weak?
aiya watever.....
jus quickly get it done..

2009-02-18T22:52:00.003+08:00

ok a fast one.. i got a lot of things to say but no time...

everytime i encounter a situation like tt i hope that i jus hav to link my tots to the computer and everything will be type out nicely... faster that way...

ok many things happened over the weekend..

i told sing i will do the facebook 25 random things about myself but end up haven do.. i tink by the timei come to it at last, the craze prob over liao... ppl r prob doing up 100 random things bout themselves alreadi... i think its realli interesting.. i wan to do it... sigh..

yes, got back my draft... needs data collection again.. ****... and its not good... many many Many changes to make... basically like he says, its a sch report... not a fyp report. he says my writing is bad. very difficult to read.. my co-sup also say so.. so it muz be really true... my concepts not there also... damn, i tried my best to squeeze out all i tot i was worth, and end up, i'm worth like that??? wth...

jiayou 10 of us... hc thanks so much for agreeing to help... mindy also veri helpful.. these 2 ah... realli owe them a lot.. thanks gal!!

so my remaining 2 weeks from now, is gg to b hell again... i jus came 1 week of fresh air leh..
interviews coming up.. nervous.

happy stuff now..

the thurs be4 vday, went hanabi w dear.. i mentioned that rite?? i think i did... then on vday at last i got my present... thought of since last june, started preparing since last dec... exaggerating rite??? i'm not... the fnished product made me believe so.. dear actually use his hands to SEW a cross-stitch cushion for me leh... its quite big somemore. veri nice:) and i muz say i'm realli impressed by his sewing skills. omg... even i'm not that neat.. and the amt of patience.... thanks dear.

my vday present.. done w lots of love

his vday present.. by ME!!!

2009-02-14T09:09:00.001+08:00

I think recently i hav been indulging in something called 'fleeting happiness'.. enjoyed for 1 whole week, n judgement day has come again.. to be continued...

2009-02-12T23:37:00.014+08:00

this few days i realli bao bao everyday... tue went sakae dinner w sis. yest went nyonya buffet w hc n mindy, tdy celebrated vday w dear at hanabi. yes again buffet.. 2days consect buffet... oh my tian..

yest nyonya buffet was at Chilli Padi Nyonya restaurant (opp bugis).. $15 onli.. the food there was simple and onli a few variety.. smallest buffet spread i ever seen. but jus treat it as a normal dinner. u will be happy with their food. in general, their food is not bad.. i like their penang laska n curry chicken noodles... the penang laska was realli authentic..veri sour n u can taste the spices... the curry was veri lemak.. hc n i drank like it was soup.. haha.. the kueh variety also not bad... but their palau hitam no coconut milk provided... a bit sad.. with coconut milk would b nicer..

then tonight, jus went hanabi with dear... celeb vday in advance..:) so fast 1 yr liao.. (although many friends feel like we hav been tog for veri long) decided to celeb tonight so as to aviod crowd on sat.. wanted to try hanabi for a long time alreadi.. in general, it didnt disappoint me.. like their way of serving.. 1 serving realli means one portion onli. even their sushi came as a piece if u order one serving.. which means very good.. no food wastage and we can try more stuff.. tried a lot of different things..n we had no food wastage at all..for sashimi, i like ika (for once), yellow tail, salmon... maguro not v good tdy.. then the pork belly w kimchi or pepper was veri soft n tender too.. chawanmushi was veri tender and full in taste.. dear also order sake.. first time trying rice wine.. can drink but i still prefer red wine.. haha. i like thier miso eggplant too.. veri fragant.hmm the grilled shitake was good too. lightly salted jus sufficient to bring out the sweetness of the shitakes.. overall it was nice.. happy..

yest during lab, we made tablets~~ quite fun.. then we had extra fine powders so while waiting for our turn at the tableting machine, i entertained myself with the fines...

my lab grp has 3 ppl, first is me

then we hav mindy,

of coz not forgetting hc :)

since vday is jus ard the corner....

happy vday cum friendship day everyone!!!! share ur love!

Job search

2009-02-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is the deadline for my first draft.. stressed these few days.. but something made me laugh..

just checked my email and read the email bout my pre-reg job application.. (it was sent a few days ago actually, no time to look at it)..

basically, in this bad economical times where ppl are out searching high and low for a job, my dept is still holding our hands... institutions are arranged to come my sch on one day (coming soon) and promote to us... Then interviews will start the next day next 3 days.. we advised not to make any response to any instituition that offer us a job till a deadline given to ALL instituitions to reply us. hahahha... so we noe wat choice we hav before making the final decision. All in all, its a span of 1 week, and VIOLA!! one week from that, i'll know where my future is heading towards!!

interesting...

2009-01-24T12:01:00.002+08:00

hi all, my internet got BIG prob.. i m back to ancient times, using dial-up for now.. connection v unstable.. waiting for my new modem... otherwise i m not internet accessible at most times... damn inconvenient.... sharks...

2009-01-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

Jus had a family dinner at blk 85.. sis was craving for food there.. had a simple dinner. the bak chor mee there quality drop liao.. their noodles confirm changed. i tried twice alreadi.. its no longer the translucent, springy ones... now the noodles r more starchy and yellowish in colour..

then we went bedok NTUC to 办年货!! so fun... i love grocery shopping with mummy.... spent $159 buying CNY stuff... mostly things my sis n i wan to eat.. LOL... when paying, my mum was still telling the cashier that we would prob finish all the tibits before CNY.... LOL... no la. its realli a lot.. cant be cant be... mummy tdy pocket burn hole le... hee.. mummy the best mah!! :)

2009-01-14T17:12:00.002+08:00

FYP is withering my young life recently so no postings..

my sup, the man who controls my stress level. i dunno to love or to hate. (both words used r slightly stronger than intended for effect..) but tts e idea.. recently, he seems to be nice to me.. providing me w e necessary enlightenment tt i was hoping to get. hopefully this will continue n be e same for e rest of us under him. We will get there...

2008-12-30T20:59:00.002+08:00

2 days to new year!! brand new year hope all good things stay, bad things go away... arent i greedy?? Let me be more sharing. Hope its the same for all! Cheers.

Xmas w 13 yaos

2008-12-27T02:05:00.010+08:00

had a veri fun xmas party with 13 yao... our usual xmas celebration.. This year theme is suspenders... Thanks sing yung for her property.. haha.. So fun, with e suspenders n BIG specs... Whipped potato is nice... everything w chicken stock is good. new cooking tip i learnt tt nite. Thanks marcus for ur xmas tree so that all of us could write our wish on it.. Thanks zh for ur gift :) merry xmas to all.. shall let photos do the talking..

after all the hard work the gals put in in the kitchen, time to display on the dining table

our spread!!

andy feeling gan dong after his first bite of the whipped potato at last. hhahaha

one of my fav photo.. so cute..

Big specs w suspenders.. 'ah toot' look

happy...

finally a group photo.. so many nice ones so difficult to choose.. happy occasion..

shaun, ask sou to crop u in somehow... don miss out... =)

Twilight

2008-12-27T01:39:00.003+08:00

OOOO.... i so LOVE twilight.. i love the romance.. i love the sweet words the vampire used... 'i don have the strength to leave you' omg omg... house on fire... lol.. its the overall package.. i love u so much that i m controling n doing my best not to bite u n drink ur blood, although it smells like the best thing.. ooo, nono this line is not gg to work in real life for me but in the world of vampires, this line, can you imagine... omg omg.. sweet.. plus the humour in it is also subtle and funny. my cup of tea for humour.. like the private joke about the artpiece made of graduation hats... hahahaha...

this is one movie in a LONG time i swoon as i watched it in the cinema... Yes, it is a teenage romance flick which is so unbelievable to adults... but IT is suppose to be a teenage romance flick in the first place when the author wrote it.. so in my view, its purpose has been attained and we shld watch it with that in mind.. Good job!

night out w COT

2008-12-27T01:27:00.005+08:00

Went to Sofra, A Turkish restaurant at Shaw Tower with COT for xmas + COT 1st anniversary celebration. Famous for it's Kebabs and Grilled food. Tried the Jumbo set with dear, and Kk, HC, edwin, all tried different dishes. Prices for it range from $13.90 to $35.90 for a jumbo set for two. If you do like Grilled food kebabs, this is a good place to try out, plus the ambience of it, its nice for ppl to hang ard.

Actually, the setting of it was very similar to what we have in India One year ago, at the Restaurant in Bangalore, and it's just nice 1yr Anniversary for the formation of the COT. Woohoo.. To think I've already known the COT group for 1yr le.. And it's being one yr since I went to India.. What a memorable experience it was.. =)

The Jumbo Kebab set.. $35.90

Grilled Dory with Cheese and beautiful Tomato cravings.

Chef's platter, $17.90..

Though our COT this time rd was not full family. But it was still an enjoyable dining out..

Adapted from http://www.akazee.blogspot.com/ without permission from the owner :)

Wishlist to Santa

2008-12-23T10:34:00.002+08:00

MY WISHLIST To Santa,

1. To hav the accompaniment of all my friends and family this xmas and forever..

2. Any misunderstandings accumulated this year will be resolved

3. Good friendships will stay strong

4. To be happy each day

5. To be constantly reminded of how blessed i am

6. To have all my unhappy encounters just keep to this year that is going to end

Thank you Santa.. love ya.

2008-12-17T22:20:00.002+08:00

today at my fyp place, i saw tms noodle stall auntie n uncle.. first was a glimpse.. took a double look to confirm its them.. coz my fyp place is not a happy place to be found in.. then i went after them... found them after a while.. intro myself to auntie n say hi to her... she was touched.. i could see that in her eyes. For a moment, i felt the warm, fuzzy feeling too.. She was surprised that i care to acknowledge her. Had a small chat w her. And i feel the sincerity. If again, i would still do the same. I think among all the vendors, somehow onli towards this couple i will bah. Thanks for all their good food during those sec sch days and my fav 50cents fried fishcake..

Simple things in life that make me happy
Simple things in life that i guess will make others feel appreciated too
Auntie n uncle, jiayou!

2008-12-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

my life is on a roller coaster operated by ac. every other day want to talk to ac just to get a little more info to make my life less complicated n simpler. yet sometimes after talking to ac, life gets more complicated too.. tts explains how he can control my happiness n depression. actually not onli my happiness is in his hands, he holds the happiness of 9 others.. so i m onli getting 1/10 of his many hundredths impt appointments..

but today, he made 4/10 of our lifes clearer... so today is a happy day.

Life's simple pleasures....

2008-12-07T18:49:00.002+08:00

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! i COMPLETED my first 10km today!!!!! ok it's irritating to hav to many !!

but so happy mah. didnt realli train. ran twice after my exams onli. and before that the last time i ran was prob more than a month ago.. My aim today was jus to complete it without walking... i think crash course mayb got use.. but max 10km la.. further than tt realli need to train liao.. timing was 1hr 27min but we started late.. haha. but compared to kat n hx, i m significantly slower la.. i admit.. they can run de lo. was with them onli for the first stretch.. then jiu bye bye they got further n further away le.. k k they shall be my new aim?? maybe i shall aim to close in the gap next time... to catch up all one go maybe too far-fetched for now la..

now my knees r aching.. n its the sides.. screw loose there i tink.. staircase is a big challenge..

2008-12-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

As things get more n more complicated in life, you would have realise u r getting older.. To the right is a hurdle, thinking you can turn to the left for an escapade, then u see a barrier... To the front is a no entry sign, to the back are 4 fierce dogs growling.... When in life the sweetness is being diluted, one would hav to slowly learn to take less sugar. To try adding back the sugar, would b an option, but the spoon may be in someone else's hand...

Learn life ya

2008-12-03T00:48:00.003+08:00

快乐悲伤只在一线
幸福空虚只在一线
拥有失去只在一线

为何，‘拥有’不能写成‘永有’，这太自私吗？
是任何好的，自己曾拥有过的东西都该分享吗？
万一，分了就是分了，他确定不在回头，那怎么办？？
你曾任定他一直都会在，但原来，好景不长在。
时光会令我们改变。
也许，内心深处，我还在，可是你已经绝定把我掩埋，自己走向更美好的为来。

好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由

只在一线

2008-11-28T00:11:00.003+08:00

i sort of find it scary.. i think we are all been prep since young to get use to the exam climate... (although it's realli something that never enough practice will calm ur nerves)

you remember playing video games?? i remember myself playing mario and sonic. I shudder when i spotted some similarities with exams..

there is always a time factor. And within this time, u r mario, or u r sonic... trying to go through all the trials and tribulations that have been so meticulously set up for you so that u can fall into their every little single trap.. U jump past a hole, u shoot a menancing looking creature, you collect the coins along the way. Always hoping to get as many points as possible... at the end u fight the BOSS... Fighting BOSS is tough, u need enough power, stamina and strategy.. if you manage to kill BOSS, u proceed and they total up ur score.. ( i can hear the coins trickling as it is been counted)...

isnt it like exams... u r always against time... u need precision and accuracy as u read the qns and be sure not to fall into any of the traps set for u to fall into... as u answer a qns correctly, u pick up that coin... at the end of it, usually Section C is where u will meet BOSS.. by then u r tired, lack stamina and BOSS is actually 'innocently' waiting there for u for a long time.. u try to fight it... there is a time limit too... so u decide to use all that every bit of energy left in u and fight it all out.. at teh end of it, they will tabulate your score...

got negative marking, even more apt... u touch the monster creature accidentally, u can actually see coins dropping out of ur pockets.... rolling rolling away... ya just like the points we pain-stakingly build up rolling away...

sigh... now i finally understand the true purpose behind these 'educational' games.... just that now, we play them at a different scale... same rules apply.

2008-11-05T17:14:00.004+08:00

went to watch Avenue Q yesterday night at the Esplanade.. first time watching a musical there.. The musical was nice! the songs were funny and the storyline was refreshing.... thanks shaun for ur recommendation.. i tink i noe why u like it so much and keep asking mi to watch liao.. haha. Coz the puppets are so funny.. hmm. entertaining 2 1/2 hrs. hmm shld b studying at this period now la.. but the show choose to be in town now, wat to do.. lol. k fun's over for now.. serious work first... tata..

Enjoy

This is wickedly evil!!! Schandenfreude (a German word- happiness in the misfortune of others)

hahaha... these are some of the songs... jus by the songs, maybe u guys cant enjoy as much. go watch it!! u'll enjoy more!1

update

2008-10-29T14:32:00.002+08:00

long time no blog le.. i tink my 3 minute hotness is showing again.. this time it lasted a bit longer than 3 minute i think.. hahah..
hectic sem that passes so fast.. felt as though i haven done anything much but i m always busy... test after test every week keep me so occupied... whenever i m at home, i ll b in the room chained to my study table... POW.. sad.. long time no go NCC le.. hope can finish data collection on time.. tml dry run for P1 presentation for fyp.. i'm scared... almost never gave a presentation in my entire uni life... now bo bian.. hopefully tml n the real thing next mon will not b so harsh on me.. oh well, my sup for one is 不好搞 alreadi... i wish myself luck..

k back to my 25 drugs...

2008-10-19T15:59:00.001+08:00

i sound so angry the previous post. oh my... still brooding over the test... not my hair.. fang bu kai... dumb dumb.

2008-10-16T20:09:00.002+08:00

jus after a test. unhappy todae so tot go cut hair. end up its worse...
the idiotic auntie cut my hair so short.... stupid woman.
i m so sad now....

heart pain, head pain....

stupid woman. service so bad somemore.......never go to those cheap cheap ones i tell you.

Bday Part 2

2008-10-05T00:47:00.010+08:00

ok.. part 2 of my bdae.. on actual day, went to Marina Mandarin for a sumptuous buffet dinner with dear. Aquamarine, found online, highly recommended by many foodies.. plus that day coz of impending F1, they had an extra theme, so it was international + french.. food was nice, exquisite.. like their desserts.. so pretty, all of them.. their seafood was good too.. but the french part, don quite like.. tried the smoked duck, which is like half cooked kind, eeks, i can still rmb the lingering taste.. tot it would b nice.. but still, a piece of smoked duch didnt dampen the fun nite!

PS. coz of F1, we had complementary racing cars on our dinner table... businessmen.. realli able to commericialize everything to their benefit.. haha.. n we leh?? dumb dumb consumers... willing to get chop.. oh well, happy jiu hao. isnt it?

2008-09-29T22:42:00.003+08:00

my bday had long past.. haven blog on it yet. let me intro by parts first... last sun, had steamboat with 13yao.. to mass celebrate angie, sing n my bdae.. as our usual practice, presents were made known (in fact we chose it ourselves), the bdae cards were hand-made n signed by all of us.. i received a veri creatve bdae card made by sing... chim lor.. small small but a lot of tot put into it.. thanks gal! =p

had steamboat at bugis that ChongQing mala shop.. we din hav their mala but their other soup bases were veri nice.. i like the herbal n tomyam de.. the salted veg one taste weird though... a lot of variety there... i love their lala, veri big n juicy... oh n also the fuzhou fishball... bursting w juice, there was one where i bit into it n the juice shot out at marcus.. oops.. veri no yi tai... paiseh leh.. lucky is marcus.. i don care.. haa had a lot of fun!!

then went tcc to 'sing song cut cake open present'. in " " coz our usual practice when we r veri full, the cake is single sliced kind (no need to cut), present we noe wat it is (just open to 'confirm'). oh it was also the last 13 yao gathering before shaun left on wed..

sent him off at the airport on wed nite... he'll b back onli one yr later.. awh... hopefully he doesnt change much again.. it was veri funny.. after we sent him in, he still keep walking up n down, machiam wan us to notice him n wave to him more.. (hhaha, joking la k, hope u didnt realli meant it tt way).. =p but mr teo, give u another yr, muz still rmb us k... muz keep in contact hor.. tata..

half-time of the semester

2008-09-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

tonight- a bit of fast shopping at orchard, a good bowl of noodles from bugis, a glass of chilling, yummy nougaut milk shake from tcc, a casual meeting up w angie, sing, shaun and a glimpse of kat..

4/1 rulez

2008-09-19T00:05:00.004+08:00

last week my happiest day... i show u... i love the times spent with 4/1... i miss those times in 4/1 where things are simple. when there is not so many distractions along the way... we stay the way we are, we laugh at the same jokes........ miss those days... i realli do... tms 4/1. lucky to get the chance to go back tms after 6yrs... overnight somemore... lucky me.. lucky us..

2008-09-11T19:12:00.002+08:00

吃力不讨好

and

吃粒葡萄好

see how good ur mandarin is bah!!! =)

2008-09-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

went to Synergy Dance Reflections yest at UCC... very artistic.. a bit too chim for mi to understand... liked onli a few pieces of the dance. went there with dear, to support a friend of his.. so met a few of his other friends. interesting ppl.

after that dance, poor thing, it was raining so heavily outside... for supper, we called cab (after a hard time trying to get 2cabs to fit 7 of us), we headed to Holland V.. ended up at crystal jade. initially thinking of a light supper, in the end, the guys opted for steamboat. imagine steamboat for supper.. haha we went along.. first time heard crystal jade hav steamboat.. actually its quite nice. apart from its steamboat, which is the yuan yang kind, we had unlimited orders of xiao long bao and steam dumplings... for dessert they still hav tow huay. omg.. it was nice. but heavy for supper.. the place opened till 1am somemore. omg.. mayb they made a vow, vow to make sporeans fat.. haha. maybe if hav chance can go there w other friends... i shld say its better than many steamboats out there...

2008-09-07T20:45:00.005+08:00

did a bit of cooking recently. polishing some of my old receipe as well as trying new ones.

i tink 2 weeks ago, i did a roast chicken with dear... success. yum! sis also say its veri nice..

then just, we had our dinner. tonight's menu, seafood rice aka my version of paella, with homemade french fries, fried calamari, oven-baked spiced mussels and prawns.... did dinner tog with huisan n dear...everything was done from scratch. huisan found the secret to crispy fries by chance n it was realli good. 2 hours of work, a wonderful dinner. even mummy say its nice, then shld b nice.. hahaha... more hope for my cafe le... wondering when i can realli own a cafe or whether there realli would b such a day..

ok test coming, hav to study... boo

2008-09-03T00:16:00.005+08:00

homeostasis is a balance in the body. It is important. The body can function only if it is in its homeostatic state. As long as the body is healthy, even if the balance is slightly threatened, the body will cleverly release horomones and substances to put it in sync once again. In many alternative medicine and their treatment therapies, they strongly believe in treating their patient hoslistically to once again achieve that balance in them.

Why all that above??

coz, i m now feeling not in my homestatic state. Its not internal, its external. which means, no hormones or substances can b naturally release to repair my tipped scales.. whoever ever heard of a libra with damaged scales...
i can only imagine myself as a whole full system and trying hard to convince my mind that everything is alright, forcing my body to perphaps release some of its endorphins.. maybe its time to re-fill..

wishes do come true

2008-08-31T00:50:00.003+08:00

haven had such fun for a long long time.. tonite met up with 4/1 ppl to celebrate jared's bday... mostly made up of 13 yao ppl, but its always nice when the other 4/1 ppl join in, catching up with each other. had dinner at mache, it was a cozy dinner. shared the german pork knuckle, pan fried mushrooms, risotti and calamari with kat, sing n shaun. the pork knuckle is realli quite nice, the skin so crispy..

i like pacific coffee ambience though al fresco a bit warm.. the big sofa cushion.. to think 17 of us can actually cuddle up tog to chat.. we almost revamped the entire al fresco place la... moving the tables n chairs to fit all of us..

i think they seldom handle such BIG orders.. coz to think they made our order wrongly n gave us 6 more mochas for FREE... OoOOOO... seriously.. too much.. cant finish..

guess all of us r meeting again soon... in 2 weeks time, ideally. in a format which i hav dreamt of having for a long long time... ideally, its with this group of ppl. so its really a wish come true.

Maybe, Once in a while, wishes DO eventually come true..
hold on to ur belief, but don insist
if its urs, eventually it will find its way to you.

2008-08-27T18:42:00.002+08:00

you know, the weeks pass so fast... its now alreadi the 3rd week.. *pants on fire* and this sem only 13 weeks... working on my fyp... its realli sharpening my research skills that hav never quite been developed.. (if it had, it had stunted growth i guess) whenever i tink of fyp, i wonder hows kat with the findings on wafarin, sing on her mickeys and diabetes.. And me, i'm doing outcomes of complementary med in cancer.. but mine shld be less fun compared to them both. coz i m doing a non-lab fyp, so soon u all will hear me complaining bout looking through 400 patients casenotes... I had 2 choices of a lab-based fyp as part of my top 3 first interests too.. They sound interesting, one about formulating a sunscreen with specific characteristcs n another also bout cancer.. but to bad, din get them.. heaven's way of helpng me decide bah.. either way, i will 'complain' bout something.. muz as well let up there decide wats best for me bah..

haven go out for quite some time le. (mayb the lack of 'fresh' air explains for my gradually depressive mood) ppl, yue wo bah!!! hahaha.. hmm, things shld start getting exciting from sat onwards bah... meeting 4/1 to celebrate jared's bday...6th yr since sec4. then next fri meeting pri sch friends+ my pri 3 teacher.. shld b fun also bah.. ya, my 2 major upcoming events.. yipee!!!~~

When we were young.... =p

2008-08-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

recently i went to my ah ma house... then someone drag out old photos to see... my sis n i found our old photos that we hav not known for so many many years... so funny n playful we were since young.. so cute... let me show u my sis n i.. can u recognise the difference???

Dry spell broken!!!!!!!

2008-08-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

spore WON our first Silver since 48years!!!!!!! woohoooooo, we broke the dry spell at last.... hopefully it will rain continue to rain more medals on us... although its by not pure Sporeans, but i guess we can close one eye since they got us a Silver somehow?? lol

watched the finals just now... although as expected spore is VERY not likely to win China, i still made it a point to watch it with that small glimmer of hope.. maybe. hopefully.. you noe..
when feng tian wei won the first set tot got hope... but then i realised, china ppl need their warm up de.. first set they let you, but the net few, they get fiercer and fiercer... and their play was realli better la.. no words more to say.. nothing to argue.. the China china ppl zhang yin ning, wang nan n guo jing played realli well...

spore de is good. but not as good bah.. but i tink that mdm wang is not v on form... watch her till her blood boil.... realli gugu lo... so not look like a player.... argh....
oh well, we still got a SILVER!!!!!!!!! job well done........ jiayou for folloeing matches!!!

COT chalet

2008-08-18T00:03:00.004+08:00

ooo... when was the last time i posted...

had a much anticipated weekend!!! had COT chalet at aloha loyang on fri after school for one night... we prepared for a BBQ dinner which dear n i bought n prepared on thurs nite... a lot of food... but due to the charcoal quality, a bit difficult to get good fire.. was BBQ-ing over low fire till we borrowed charcoal from next pit... then our BBQ realli got started. haha. then mindy quite poor thing.. eating vegetarian on friday... could onli hav potato and asparagus mainly... + banana.. aiyo.. i feel bad..
then wats COT if we dont hav a COT session... haha. wp n hc were tired din join in. hmm mayb u gals can consult kk-an in future... he's quite 棒.. tell us a lot about our character based on horoscopes and its realli quite true... proven by the rest of us... hee...

happy happy... hope COT have more more outings... like it when all of us r together, always so fun n enjoyable when all of us r together... so many rubbish... maybe we shld make it a monthly effort to meet up or something... wat ya think?

(paiseh no photos coz all of us tot each other will bring camera.. end up no one brought. hahah kuku)

2008-08-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

P ass me the salt
A dd 3tbs of sodium valproate
S tir it till homogenous
S ip 10ml tds without water
I gnite the remaining mixture
O ff to the bathroom should any discoomfort arise
N ever ever do this

sometimes, disillusion arise
some may tink it is asking for the moon
others think it is wat it is ought to be
outsiders do not understand
insiders are well, disillusioned

i look back and remind myself of wat i should go for:
PASSION, PURPOSE, DRIVE

Mad about English

2008-08-10T15:45:00.004+08:00

due to the Olypmics, China is trying very hard to welcome the foreigners by self-improving...
seen on news last night, many China restaurants in their bid to woo caucasians to their restaurants, they hav tried coming up with English translations for their dishes.. One dish i rmb hearing was for 童子鸡, instead of spring chicken, it was called 'chicken without sexual life'... *evil* but wahahahahaa.... my sis n i laughed non stop

btw, a Singaporean made a documentary film called 'Mad about English'

Now showing, sit back relax, enjoy
hav a laugh! =)

ZOOooooo!!!!!!!

2008-08-09T22:22:00.004+08:00

had another happening day yest again!

morning i went rag with dear.. met up with hc to watch rag.. morning got rain, end up rag got postpone by 1 1/2 hr which is good actually, i get to sleep longer... pharmacy!!! i m realli proud of u.. we r a veri young team.. jus 3 yrs into RAG n this year our float was beyond my expectations for pharm... end up we won something distinctive at last!! we got the best float design... and edwin danced realli well, got sheh lor.. kekke... good good.. then saw dr chui, TML n eric chan come support also... PHARMILY.... hahaha

Pharm ppl in action!!! hip hip hurray!!! =p

then like i said it was a busy day.. coz dear n i then headed for the zoo then night safari at nite... unlike wat my sister thinks, the safari is not the zoo with lights off!! lol... enjoyed myself at both places although there's a bit of walking and my feet hurts due to the rashes. so many cute cute animals.. then we even saw a pair of mousedeers hmm.... pro-creating... lol..

was a bit disappointed in the day coz the big cats r all lazing around at one obscure corner... see le i also feel sleepy... but then, the lions, tigers, leopards blah blah were definitely more active at nite... so luckily went safari, manage to see them more active... like the safari coz the animals could b at veri close range to us... that's the purpose rite...

i like the animals shows also.. esp the night safari one, but lucky we didnt sit near to the stage coz they hid a big python in the audience stand... OMG!!! if its me there, i tink i'll go weak.... i can see them but touch? nono... i don even allow their photos to appear in my camera kay....

my jin gui.... of coz muz take photo lah.. he

baby kangeroo... cute... this animal is doing 'sentry duty' to prevent predators coming near

not a lot of photos here coz dark and for benefit of animals, no flash...

the porcupine quills do drop off n grow.. hollow and sharp..

Thank you

2008-08-07T21:59:00.004+08:00

today, i hav a choice whether to write a happy post or a more depressing post... i'm not feeling particularly happy or sad... so friends, i m not emo-ing... hee

inspired by wp's blog, her happy incidents w louti, it makes me tink of mine too.. i m so xin fu also... LOL... *hair stand* it has been almost 6 months.. so fast..

thanks for all the things u have done for me
thanks for learning to understand me
thanks for all ur support
thanks for being patient and understanding all this while
thanks for learning to enjoy my nonsense
thanks for all ur love (i can feel it)
thanks for making my every moment with u something i look forward to
thank u dear =p

ok i suppose its a hair-rasing experience for my dear friends... k k my hair standing also actually.. shall end here.. if not i scared my dear will float away also... then i no more dear le.. wahaha

2008-08-07T00:57:00.003+08:00

at last got reunited after so long with one of my love todae... after so long, it has not abandon me... need a few more practising, i'll b like before again...

todae i super water bucket.. drank 100 plus, ice lemon tea, coke... omg.... lose calories, put back calories.... in the gassy mood todae i guess..
sang kbox w pharm gals.. k box got new pattern... now other than tibits, hav fruits (canned mixed fruits), chips, french fries+ either takopachi, breaded prawn, spring roll or calamari.... we cant finish la in the end.. so full... its in the package.. kstudent $14.50NETT.. LOL quite hua suan..

then i kena headache...

then meet 1903.. damn funny once again... but headache still linger so came home instead to cont part 2 w them...

REGRETS.. the end point??

2008-08-06T01:02:00.003+08:00

do u remember time where life was much simpler???
i m trying hard to recall when mine was..
i think i am a young adult now trying to grapple with new issues in life.. quite tough
heard that we grow as we learn
do we do observational learning or do we try out something and let the older n supposedly the wiser ones turn around and say, 'i told u so.' Are we suppose to avoid those potential regrets and let it pass THEN maybe look back and regret in future or are we suppose to go out for it, taking that risk then if fail then regret? See!! either way it leads to regrets.... no wonder everyone will bound to hav some under their belt.. its like that mind map no matter wats the process taken, may eventually lead to the final sad truth-regret in one way or another. Is this why they always advise us to enjoy the process and not to be too focused on the result? in my idea, maybe.

oh well, being suddenly cynical.... why like that!!!

hmm coz life's like that??

NDP 08

2008-08-03T01:07:00.007+08:00

went NDP 08 preview todae... i particular love 3 segments of the performance... the Red Lions parachuting, Black Knights gliding through the sky n last but not least, the FIREWORKS!!!!!!!

every yr i tink the parachute guys r so sheh... everytime they descend, i feel so proud for them.. the feeling of every1 cheering for them muz be really great... the smooth descent they usually have show the practice n time they put in... make mi feel like learning... but i don tink can.. imagine coming down free fall... even pirate ship i got some issues with it liao...

hmm the black knights... by the name is so mysterious le lah.. rite?? their performance is always breath-taking.... saw them at the Avation show that time, though similar manuvoers but still veri engrossed in their acts..

lastly is the fireworks... i simply love those gold-coloured fireworks that shimmers... veri pretty... always catch myself smiling at the fireworks... oh crap, imagine how stupid i look... was imagining if impt days of my life hav fireworks... how splendid.. LOL...

us with big hands. fav item frm the funpack.. still can light up de lo... don play play

cool orh... entertaining myself.. Red Lions
Black Knights
the typical fly-past... old idea, but oOo so familiar...
nice finale..

then after NDP went aranda for ky bday... saw many juniors from tms...haven seen them since i left tms.. all the boy boys grow up liao... nice talking to them.. but they cant seem to be able to stop reminding us that we r older.. sharks... even walking into the chalet i feel old... lol.. oh well, thats life i guess. =p

nite out geylang..

2008-08-03T00:32:00.006+08:00

heyhey... i'm so happy, i'm so glad, that my attachment is finally over!! can breathe fresh air le!! though gruelling, but i'm glad i had it there. learnt a lot. had lots of fun w pearlyn too... love that gal noe, hav someone to keep both of us entertain... lol

then last nite, quite happening. went geylang.... to EAT la!! din hav my chicken rice, but had hokkein mee instead, not bad la..we finished it at 8 followed by tow huay n you tiao at yong he, finished at 9.. by then, actually we veri full le... but die die still hav to fufil the main agenda of the day that is to eat durian.. so among 4 of us (sy din eat) we ate 4 durians... hmm... now it does feel like a lot... lol. it was yummy. an experience to eat by the road... at last saw mr teo manly side... for that few moments onli la, coz he help us carry durian and open durian..
super long you tiao.... you tiao w tow huay.. yummy...

3 gals happy with their you tiao
mayb we shld go out eat durian more often... nice... after last nite my durian craving has deepen... muhahaa

our first durian expetition
PS.. geylang is a bit scary at nite... got stupid shallow old men with leering eyes... anyhow look... think famous amos meh.. 'free looks'..... abish....

2008-07-26T16:40:00.002+08:00

almost the end of the month le, a bit ashame of myself, blog 5 times so far for the month onli... hmm don suggest me to be time effective and do a weekly summary.. coz i cant rmb.. though i hav my programs in my planner, nah, don wan to take it out n type accordingly... so admin work.. the sun-burn i had one week ago, is still there.. omg.. i don tink i'm over burnt coz i m still white. jus that over the week my face is peeling and it became a topic at my workplace (for one min or so mayb)... quite a few of them came to knew tt i went diving as a result... those pre-regs who been through wat i m gg through now will veri predictably give me a look that says, 'wah, u veri 'free' hor?' oh well, don do now, when to do... good to start together with ppl whom i m comfortable with and get that basic certification mah... if not if i learn it next time, u guys n gals can go leisure dive, i still stuck shore dive, house reef... sad leh.. now got possiblity to go back tioman, redang, sipadan.. woohoo... tot of it jiu high..

tis week i had a boring life... after work is home to do more work.. but at least get to eat dinner at home.. felt like i haven been eating home for a long time.. think think a bit, yuan lai is coz last week busy w dive prep.. lol realised something, last week i had prata twice... more than i eat rice i tink... oh no.

hey ppl, next week is my last week of attachment le!! 13yao ppl, lets meet on fri nite to go drinking.. haha.. those who wan contact me k... =p

PS. hav time to blog now coz my boy who suppose to hav tuition at 3 say he mood swing tdy..din wan to come.. after clever liase with his mum, he is suppose to come later.. well well, not here yet, dunno wat to expect from a boy who is stuck in puberty... lol

13yaos

2008-07-23T01:09:00.005+08:00

went to meet 13yao tonight.... todae is a blue moon day, 13 yao 'hu' le.... 13 of us at last... yeah! tis is veri rare lo... tis is the day where sou, angie shuyu n mx convo... see them n hx in their grad costumes... so nice... one year later.... haha.. so long still.. but look how we hav grown... it has been so many years.... hav we all changed?? how hav we changed?? sometimes i jus don understand... well, i don understand... someone pls enlighten me please....

the 5 gals who at last see their light at the end of the tunnel.. congrats!

nothing is constant except change... can it be not true.. i wan to preserve some stuff but like sand, it seems to b slipping through my hands... seeing all of us graduating one by one.. next year is my turn, kat's turn and sing's turn.. machaim we like the products of factory production chain like tat... sometimes feel stress.. everything is moving on everyday.. sometimes i just wish things would slow down for me to savour the nice moments... i miss the times where i get to sit at the audience stand in tj's field, facing the wind, chatting with my dear friends..

do u all get the feeling?? sometimes when u r doing something tat is nice, u noe that u will miss the moment in future.. u try ur best to treasure it, but still eventually that heart-warming period will pass. then u can onli hold on to that memory and miss it so much..

Weekend getaway

2008-07-23T00:48:00.004+08:00

a gRoup photo before our first dive. with our instructor, and DM yento
grp photo before our descent in Reggis Island
dear n i at Sun Beach Resort
dear n i underwater. happy and comfortable
after our 4th dive... yeah~ we r certified open water divers le!!!

back from diving... fun!! i love it.. scared at first, but when i m realli in water, i like the feeling... breathe in breathe out.. at first was difficult, muz remember to breathe in and out... then it becomes second nature... many skills to learn n i m amazed that i can even master them.... but still hav fine tuning to do la.. hope i can log more dives in future... i tink i'm in love with diving... =p

for more interesting stuff bout my dive trip, interested parties can refer to http://akazee.blogspot.com/

chronic fatigue

2008-07-17T00:17:00.002+08:00

well well friends, i noe i'm veri inactive online lately. i dunno bout ur latest happenings, ur latest gossip and latest hobby... well well, wat can i say... 'HEY!!! i'm still around!!! jus plain busy...'
i don see much of anyone lately... the person i c most is the person who is 'stuck' with me for 6 weeks in a 'ooo, i'm so lucky' sort of way... realli lucky... if not i'll have to 'disappear' off alone la.. that will be damn sad...
tired- up to the point where i can get dizzy sometimes and an intense longing for the bed all time... chronic fatigue... old alreadi...
trying to create more stuff for myself... taking up diving.. veri hectic la.. pushing.. but its fun. good experience. setting off this friday.. i'll survive through.. wat don break me makes me stronger...
meantime, hey friends don forget me k. don cut me out of ur circle circle.... =)

updates...

2008-07-08T23:22:00.004+08:00

haven been blogging for a longgg time.... don tink my life is boring so nothing to blog k...haha. actually quite a lot happened this few days.. jus tat i'm too tired to blog my doings each day... actually now i'm also veri tired, up to e point i feel a wave of dizziness when i turn ard suddenly todae.. scared me... but decided to blog a bit first.. too many things le..

dear bday todae.. on sun, we went out to celebrate... went mount faber safra, the jap restaurant, 'Himawari'.. nice nice. had buffet.. the sashimi was nice.. we ordered 2 plates of mixed sashimi.. had shabu shabu too.. a lot of other food.. had a lot.. got more food i wanted to order but realli cant stomach liao... then we went to walk walk Henderson Waves.. a newly constructed overhead broadwalk shaped like waves.. interesting.. at Mt Faber, it reminds me of the recent Hk trip to The Peak.. the peak was much higher la of coz, but the winding road up did feel a teeny weeny bit like the Peak.. i prefer THE PEAK road though veri wind-y.. but even at Mt Faber, when we were gg downhill, dear jus let the car go free fall, and the speed was alreadi 40km/h, fun la...

hee was tinking whether without a cake on sun, he will b disappointed not.. but it was all part of my plan la... did a surprise for him tonite... hahaa.. had a good time n laugh... though it was onli for a short while.. :p thanks guanting for ur help :)

Stonign n nua-ing

2008-07-03T22:07:00.003+08:00

i m so tired... i miss my 2 favourite hobbies.. stoning and nua-ing..
there's a difference between stoning and nua-ing u noe..
i rule stoning as my top most favourite... coz it can be done everywhere and anywhere.... u jus zone out, switch off ur mind.. people close to me will noe, i can stone anywhere... =) hee...
my second fav is nua-ing... for nua-ing, u can do stuff while lazing around.... tis is more difficult to achieve.. the difference from stoning is that tis invovles the use of the brain.. but u need time n the correct place... haven been nua-ing for a long time....

now i don even hav time to stone.... ah...................... i miss them!!!!

Theory of enzymes and substrate....

2008-06-29T00:15:00.003+08:00

some men are liken to be enzymes.. and we, the women in this equation are the substrate... yes, enzymes are highly specific... they look out for specific quality like pretty face, nice figure, long legs.. and we the substrates are just trying to look for a complementary fit... and when enzymes got the the substrate, biochemical reactions will occur.. women thinks that its chemistry... but enzymes are actively trying to break it down... the end products are so much different from the initial substrate and it will no longer fit the active site of the enzyme... when tis happens, the enzyme will release the substrate... substrate, also failing to recognise itself has no choice but to leave... and what happens to the enzyme??? it will go on looking for its new substrate to catayse lor.... and please bear in mind that an enzyme's turnover rate is very high...

scary hor.......

TIRED...

2008-06-27T23:57:00.003+08:00

this is unintentional.. not on purpose that i don blog recently.. just tired. T-I-R-E-D. just first week... hav fun learning but a lot of assignments which i tink i may not realli hav the time to 'enjoy'...... its wearing me out.... so please pardon me...

caught a breather last nite with dear. went to watch 'Don Mess with Zohan'... stupidly lame movie.. knew it was lame but din noe it was THAT lame... was laughing non-stop... its silly things that will never happen in real life... but i was just amazed n wondering wat the scriptwriter was thinking when he was writing the script... he is mad!!! normal ppl would not hav such weird ideas... (well, i assume its a guy.. coz its just too much crap for a lady to tink off.. ladies just watch..) lol... pizza hut closed before we could sink our teeth into it... :( but so coincidental.. todae workplace, tehy treated pizza hut.. LOL....
i dunno where to find the time to do assignments..... die, dying.............. not yet die-ed...

first day

2008-06-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

first day of preceptorship todae..
din see much of my preceptor todae coz she busy.. yes its a 'she'.. at first by the name, i tot its a guy again... lol...
the satellite pharmacy i'm in seems quite fun... the people there r nice... at least first impression la.
lucky was with pearlyn. v lcuky la.. onli both of us got to work tog..
i hav goldfish memory n it got proven again todae... hopefully i will get more familarise by 2 more days???
lots of work to do here..
longer hours also...
hope i survive n still hav time for things i wanna do n for people i wan to spend with...
tata

NANATELLA!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-22T00:53:00.006+08:00

The Making of Our Masterpiece...

Prove that we do work...

Veri funny lo... sy took the bananas leave this dangling there.. muz take photo
Nanatella in the making..
Prove that someone was zzz-ing...

WOO HOO!!! we succeeded!!! we successfully baked a nice, chocolatey, fluffly chocolate cake... cakes r not easy to bake... i failed several times before... dont like to bake cakes.. muffins and cookies r much easier.. but last nite, kat found a recipe online and we decided to follow it.. n Viola! it was good... onli kat, sy n mi were doing the baking lor... someone was busy sleeping... we got prove de... muz facebook it somemore.. lol... since i had some bananas and nutella at home, we decided to be impromptu and made nutella banana chocolate cake too.. the end result will be one of our first creation for our CAFE, presenting to all, 'NANATELLA'!!!! copyrighted k... don copy us...

Kat n sy playing with the cake knife....
Cutting cake ceremony... (angie still sleeping)

Drooling??? ? Wan try it?? try it at our CAFE...

thereafter we played mj... quietly sneak to play leaving angie sleeping. haha.. had steamboat at nite... yummy... opened bailey's too... i tink i prefer the caramel flavoured compared to original... din drink a lot todae... hahaha i don drink.. *wink*. dear came also n tried our freshly baked NANATELLA! =p hmm din play much mj todae... wan to play more!!!...

PS serious sore throat... tml suppose to go k... not much hope to go liao la... if not first day of attachment scully mc... no good... :(

Busy day

2008-06-21T01:32:00.004+08:00

today is a busy day.. got SATC season 1 & 2 in my hands now... tried to chiong it this afternoon with dear.. work starting soon, no such free time to watch liao...
then evening was busy... 2 engagements tonite... it's difficult to choose between both, hence i went for both in the end..

met up library ppl... saw mrs chua whom i haven seen in almost 6yrs... hence, the need for tonite's gathering... but the turnout was again the few of us whom i've met up quite recently.. nvm at least got to c mrs chua.. well, this gathering was confirmed earlier than 13yao outing..n i've already given my promise hence i felt that regardless, i hav to at least attend it..

13yao outing tonight was at Shokudo.. its a get-together since mr teo is back and its to also celebrate his belated bday which was yest.. the confirming of dates was rather last minute coz we were unsure when mr teo is free... tot he jus come back will be veri busy entertaining mah... plus i facebook him last week, he din reply me... hmm todae 13yao no zehao, end up we cant 'hu' again... i noe 13yao does not come by often... but hopefully it will soon happen... :)

2008-06-19T00:34:00.004+08:00

Yeah!! mr teo is back!! got to talk to him todae... not much has changed... he is still who he is, and we r still who we are.. jus that for the past 9mths, we lived our own lives with a 13hr difference... but glad that tis 13hr difference haven changed much of the friendship. looking forward for friday 13yaos gathering... cant hav full attendance again.. oh well, with 13 ppl i guess its kinda hard to coordinate.... but i'm sure we will hav a good time...

dear sensed tat i'm not veri pleased with myself yest... todae, when we met, he surprised me with flowers... haha.. quite sweet hor... thanks dar.

went cycling plus a bbq @ ECP todae... rainy day... after so many days of bright and sunny... so qiao hor... so cycled in the rain todae... tink my cycling skills is slowly improving.... maybe with a little more confidence in myself in it, i'll cycle better... muz go cycling more... ooo, jus love to cycle on a weekday.... :)

-the kuku in me-

My new Asus lappie!!!

2008-06-15T12:32:00.004+08:00

aiyoz i'm now a proud owner of an Asus laptop!!! actually i hav no urgent need for a new laptop... surviving well with my old desktop but well, sometimes with urgent deadlines to meet, 2 PCs at home may realli b a great help.. trying to get use to the functioning of tis new friend... hopes that it serves me well and does not fail me.... for some reason, i hav some negative magic powers on electronic gadgets so muz b careful... lolz...

And a point to note, this lappie is neither of the 2 that i was considering 2 days ago.. well, my NEC got snapped off even though i went on the 3rd day instead of the 4th.. n well, my sis was wary with Acer, n that Acer not v chio also... at least i like the interface of my Asus.. quite pretty.. :)

PS tis is my first post on my lappie.... okok.. gg to explore more of my new friend now... :)