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ended CDC attachment. Quite an eye opener in e past 2 weeks. Many young HIV members, screened and newly Dx either before NS or before ORD. Bisexual, MSM etc. Old man who ve gotten t a few yrs mostly through CSW.

To me, choice of partners is a lifestyle choice. Felt sorry for some of them. They are as innocent as another person who caught a flu from ther partner. Initially, all of them r so normal looking. Like any of our friends. How hard muz it b for them to carry such a heavy secret with them ard. Imagine, teenagers younger than me..
Tts in the clinic.

The ward has some end stage patients.. All sorts of complications hound them, refusing to budge. Spiking fever like nobody's business. I got to noe Mr X, a long term IVDA, member of coz, who was prev residing at a halfway house. IVDA is a bit wasteful la. But he talked to me n i felt pitiful for him. Lodging is a BIG problem for these patients if family support is low. They live lifes without a fixed residence. Shuttling between hospitals (shld there b an acute infection) and whichever halfway house or volunteary housing that hav space to take them in.. Mr X was complaining to me of the restrited life he was place under at his new lodging.. His prev loding that he liked that some probs w him hence he was not placed there after his discharge this time..

sigh.. i hope that these patients will take god care of themselves. guai guai take their ARTs, don miss doses, practice public responsibility. Good luck n jiayou!

Alone

I went to e temple tdy, alone.
Went there to let go of some stuff.
Then I walked to e coffeeshop down tt corridor
sat there n ate lunch at 5, alone.
then I walked to e busstop,
I tot I saw someone n tt made my heart skipped a beat;
I wave at e person.
Lucky it was a stranger. Lucky..
Better nt appear at tt moment
I can't handle it.
Then I went home, at peace.

A long time ago before I stopped actively blogging, I ever wondered how nice it would b if I can jus connect a wire to my head n sync watever I wan to say into words n post it on blog.. nt realli thee yet bt close now wy new I phone!! Hee. Su0pose to get it for work purpose shun Bianfor leisure. Nw I can really post as I walk.. Save some time hopefully can study one more chap tis way. Haha. Found a good bubble tea shop at bedok interchange recently. San told me bout it. My 3rd cup so far coz it's nt cheap n interchange nt near for me.. Good also if nt waste $$  k hopefully w tis tea go home hav eneegy chiong. Jiayou. Two more mths!!! Cannot upload photos. Hmm try again next time

it was a merry merry xmas at work.. pre-regs rockz!!! all of us planned hard, cooperate w lots of chemistry, n played hard too!

i won the hamper that i was suppose to give out! hohoho.. pretty pretty picnic basket!! i can go picnic loh!!!

i hope i can stay n grow healthily w ttsh n its ppl.. hopez.. brains where r u!!!

i love the underwaters. jus saw video. tot to share.

when i was young, i m fascinated by wats in the deep seas n oceans and wats up there in the deep universe.. like to imagine wat are there residing in those places... aliens i don noe. but apparently in the deep waters more n more new creatures are being found.. the deep seas are deep n dark, no doubt dangers lurking, there's still so much unknown..

who noes, there may realli be loch ness.. my childhood fantasy till now.. let me see one, jus a baby one will do.

took leave to study viva, ended up wasting time. i tink i've alreadi forgotten how to study. v tired, i even took a nap, which i seldom do unless i m sick. if i were to study like i did now during my sch yrs, i wonder whether i will even get into uni. haha. i think compared to last time, i m more kan kai. haha no urgency yet..

i wan shopping, i wan to go fly kite, i wan to watch new moon, i wan to play badminton.... anything but study. after next week... quick...

some happy tots.. checked recently w the pharmacist in charge of planning roster, she told me a confirmed pharmacist 1 yr got 21 days leave.. woa.. i dunno wats e 'market rate' now. but 21 days sounds like a lot to me. haha. maybe i mountain tortoise, maybe otehrs are getting more than me. but i m happy liao.. but this year, pre-reg yr don hav so many la.. 12 days over the 9mths only.. n i guess most of us will take it to study for our tests n exams whihc are impossible to study if working..

next big exam on 3rd nov, me taking 2 days leave next week to study.. how useful i dunno.. hopefully productive bah..

but like an abscess that needs debridement, there is so many things to clear before i can realli sit down to study. hence that translates to 'i don think i can finish'.. woahaha.
there will b a way out, somewhere, somehow

i m too lazy. even jus by a click of the button.. i guess no one reads this anymore... haha even friends who used to ask me update don remind me anymore.. i guess my bad habit of 3 min excitement has once again die down.

year end again. planning for xmas party at work.

looking forward to my sis 21st bday party.

i cant believe this year is gg to end soon. so much happened this year. as a person, so much changes took place. i see myself morph into a working adult. i start to see my future more clearly. as my friend n i were chatting bout the next candle onto our cake, the topic both of us were discussing was so foreign jus a few mths ago.. so much has changed.

changed for the better i hope.

快乐也许可以很简单。我希望它不难。希望在忙碌中有依靠，让我快乐，让我有继续努力的勇气。

long hair.. no time to cut.. actually it's more of dunno what to do with it..
perm to make my face look bigger?
rebond and end up not being able to tie my hair and sweat to death in the wards?
or to cut short then lament about how much hair i've cut for the next 48h as though it will never ever grow back?

i wan to dye, but to sit a few hours away in a salon during my precious 1 1/2 day weekend seems a bit too wasteful for now.. (my friend said she was reading notes while the stylist did her hair. good suggestion. but her colour ended up redder than expected.. there goes tt idea)

so now i bun it up.. BORING!!!

this bday will b spent studying.. jus got back frm work at 11pm. but got 3 surprises and laughs jus within a short 1 hr. thank u all:)

k k go find answers to my questions.... doing heart. weak heart.. i wanna make it strong.. pump pump pump..

i dunno wat happened to my blog setup.. its weird.. the whole format in the editing post page is screwed up. I cant add images for a long time.. the icon vanished.. there is nothing for me to click on to do so..

had been a hectic 2 and half months so far. and finally, i m suffering from down-time.. Flu these few days. todae cannot take it liao, went see doc. Order meds from the doctor. haha. Nowadays when i go see doctor, its quite irritating sometimes. I roughly have to know what meds to ask from the doctor coz when they noe bout ur job, they expect u to tell them wat u wan. Simple meds i m still ok.. but when sick hav to think, argh. Need the free meds, need the mc, bo bian, 'hi doc'

funny thing is my partner, mindy also sick!! haha both of us down with URTI.. but she hav fever i do not. i hav sore throat she does not. the rest of the symptoms are the same liao.. She both of us go see doc tog todae. got mc tog this morning. but both of us left at onli ard 3pm coz had to clear some work..

After we got the prescription from the doc, we made our way down to the pharmacy to get our meds. I self created an account for myself, type in the doc orders for the meds, confirmed the orders, packed my own meds, checked my own meds, and as a rule, ask a pharmacist to double check n dispense to me. So cool rite, how often patients DIY till like tt.. hhaaa.

我是病人.....

worked tdy. but it was quite fun! haha. worked w my preceptor n another 3 other pharmacist. with me, is my friend cum colleague, entian. hmm 6 of us managed to supply the meds needed by 13 levels of wards on time at 2pm!! was a feat i muz say. coz i was told by other pharm techicians tt usually Sundays n PH r v busy one. somehow, ppl tend to get discharge more and so more will get admitted. was told tt if i m unlucky, may drag on till 4+... but tdy the pharmacists on duty were realli v chop chop n efficient! *claps n cheers* wah, tdy quite a lot of unexpected things happened still can ping ping an an in the end n on target somemore.. heng ah!

i getting more n more pei fu of my preceptor.. realli zai n nt ur typical pharmacist. something in her tts different. may b a blessing to b under her.. still early. will give full conclusion 7mths later :p

my first official off day on this coming sat.. happy. at last sat hav nothing work related gg on.. thinking of how to spend it.. mayb go out a while then b home to clear my work.. working on National Day though.. bo bian.. got first aid course on 3 other sundays.. haha. welcome to the real world :/

Completed my first 6weeks rotation at Retail.. learned quite a lot of stuff there n i love the interaction with all the customers.. maybe is i lucky, didnt realli meet with many difficult customers.. i love my job!!!

at my half days in Outpatient Pharmacy, it was also very exciting and fun.. a lot of new things to learn.. not only the medications side (which i m totally not good at all), its also the operational side.. the processing, the interventions.
Standing is realli tired. Pharmacists hav almost no chance to sit at all.. (at least in Retail n OP). my legs got so sore n tired after 4 days of wearing sandals w heels tt i couldnt walk much the following 2 days.. And guess wat, after that episode, i got to know that my feet got high arch, hence the imbalance in pressure. AFTER 22 yrs.. hmm. Since for 22 yrs i din noe n it din cause much harm, i shall remain it that way then.

Next stop is Drug Info Service.. 6 weeks. Hmm this rotation, i will get to sit till my butt get pressure sores i suppose. Will be staying whole day in office, enriching my little brain and learning how to deal with qns by doc, patients, nurses who call in.. Phone operator. Hopefully, i get to catch up on my knowledge side in this 6 weeks.. I cant be a pharmacist who is good in interaction n soft skills yet hav no knowledge to offer or empower others.. that would b so sad..

Looking forward.. Hopefully, being a pharmacist is wat i m realli suited for. Hope i hav found my true calling

hav been doing checking since last week. but todae being given the confidence to check n push out without the need of another round of double checking.. happy~ slowly becoming independent. needs more time. :p

at last convo tdy. marks the end of everything. ended the 17yrs journey of structured learning. went up the stage to take the scroll, for that few moments, we studied 17yrs for it. like what candice who sat beside me tdy said, 'i cant believe we studied jus to get this'. sad but true. happy day n another mad day of cam-whoring.

nice that my family, xiaoyi, n zy came. zy din make it to see me go up stage though. but nvm, noe tt uve rushed down asap. At least, u took photos w me. see u rush to n fro also feel bad.. but v glad u came. thanks dear for ur effort..

also a big thanks for all who cant come but sms-ed me. i noe u guys r busy, but at least have heart, i appreciate. no matter how far r u guys, i noe i can depend on u :)
A big thanks for all my friends whom i hav known over the years. i studied n played with u guys, today is convo day.

someone complain i din update blog... hahaa.... k la k la.. u noe de ma. rite??

tml is convo day, so i figured better to collate my life so far recently before tml photos come flowing in again.. hee

k wat happen recently in my life??
hmm, bout 2 weeks ago, i went bird park with dear. coz he got routinely go blood donation so there is a event for free sightseeing at Jurong Bird Park. n so we went.. actually don wan to kena rip de.. end up we still bought a $22 photo.. (yes, those tourist take kind, but very nice leh.. tats y lo)

then last sat went pharmacy grad dinner @ Hilton Hotel. quite fun!! its like a close-knitted family dinner. v cosy n everyone who was being called on stage were v sporty.. lol..





recently becoz of H1N1, we hav been packing a lot of masks for patients, for customers.. i ve packed like 5000x2 masks now... hhaa. can u imagine...


my mask-packing partner, xiuting :) cheers!

tdy dear's bday. celebrated w him yest nite.. dinner at Mellben Seafood at Ang Mo Kio. a crab speciality zi char stall.. veri good crabs they hav.. yum yum.. we had the Top Top recommendation. Crab bee hoon soup. the soup v creamy n thick.. yummy!!!!!!!!



other random photos


my mj winning tiles.. haha... so heng. :p





mindy n her flu n hep B jab.. plus tdy one more-Chickenpox jab.. poor thing

sad.. did something 'wrong' todae.. or rather i din 'do' something.. sad.. jus received notice.. tml hav to go face the music..

next thurs commencement, no leave. they onli give half day.. sian rite.. sigh.. trying to push for leave.. but wats the chances of 17ppl on leave tog.. SMALL..