My life

learnt something interesting from my mum that is bout me today.
mum told me that when i was 2, i was afraid of my own shadow. wouldnt dare to walk whenever i saw my own shadow... no memories of it, but its always nice listening to silly things i use to do almost 2 decades ago... boy, its almost 2 decades= 20 years= 7305days (plus roughly 5 leaps days i've encountered)= 175320hrs= 10519200minutes. its being so long... scary to think of it this way.. in this 10million of minutes, how many of it was spent laughing, sorrowing, playing, studying or jus simply staring into blank space?? i wonder... how nice would it be if there is a machine which can evaluate the life of a person. i often wonder, would there be a day, a chance for me to stand as a by-viewer and watch a review of my entire life?? u noe, from the day u r born till ur death bed..
i guess i will
feel the warmth when i see the way mummy held my small hands n taught me to walk,
feel the rebellious streak in me when i cried hours jus so i can don attend nursery,
feel the anxiety when i had tons of work to be done,
feel the stress when i had tests and exams coming up,
feel the dejectment when i noe i've not performed up to my expectations,
feel the relaxing mood when i sit ard after mass pe at the audience stand slacking bout with my buddies spending time tog,
feel the support i hav with my close friends,
feel the adrenaline rush when i do naughty things,
feel the sorrow when loved ones leave my side,
feel the joy when i m loved.....

there are so many facets of my life that i wanna reflect upon and enjoy through them again... i wanna see the unhappy me, and give myself a pat n say, don worry, better days are ahead, i wanna see the elated me and say, enjoy! u deserve the best. somehow, when u r going through the process, we seldom see things the way we noe we shld. so if only i ve such a chance, i would like to see my life being played before me again... it will not be boring (def not to me), it will be my best show ever.... =)