Many thanks to all

Better to put as a seperate post. if not too long le. hahahaha :p

I realli would like to thank so many people in helping me:

Thanks AC, for reading n vetting n stimulating my mind non-stop. very agonising, yes. its a love-hate rel.

Thanks Mindy, for so much of ur help. you r realli an angel in my life. you always help to enlighten me whenever i m down. its my fyp and u hav urs to worry bout to, yet u always render help whenever i need it. Don think its minimal, it meant a lot to me. Really. :)

Thanks hc, you r another great help! thanks for agreeing to help me during that horror period. Lucky got you, i can calm down and brace through it all.

Thanks shaun, thanks for offering to help me read my thesis. Hee i noe you were very busy then, yet u still tried ur best to give me ur valuable comments. Realli appreciated it. Comments from chicago, plus from a future budding neuroscientist. haha, it is my honour.

Thanks cons, i tink it was horror of horror for both of us when we got that terrible email. i also dunno whether to say luckily or unluckily, i got you for company... hey isnt it a concidence, we got another email together again tonite! :) lucky its good news this time. :) hard work paid off!!!!! yoohoo! :p

Thanks to my sis too, she helped me read my 1st draft, help me go through my poster tog, listen to me present like 3 times, help me prepare cue cards.. your bday this year will b good. :)

And last but not least, thanks to my dear. He is the one who hear me whine, complain, tahan my sullen face n lifeless form this 9 months. Thanks for all your support this while. Thanks for reading my drafts numerous times and be my audience who comment and time my presentation so many times. i think you r quite well-verse in CAM now too. :p

journey of fyp

One MORE DAY!!! yeah! fyp will be finally officially over... tml is our poster presentation.
sun n mon, i went to print poster. went 2 days coz i found some glitches. oh well, lucky i end up print one poster only.. if not veri waste $$. the feeling when seeing my own poster being printed was good. Marks the end of fyp. Quite proud of it although i realli saw many nice nice ones.. i c so many of my classmates there la..i tink that shop jus earn our money jiu happy liao. haha.

tdy when i pinned up my poster, it was another kind of fufilling feeling. i think many of my friends felt the same towards their poster also. Its almost like a crystallisation of the efforts. I like so many posters.. there were like 60 posters and most of them quite pretty..

i like mindy's one the most.. Gal, hee urs i still like the most! :)
tml will be an exiciting day. hopefully, after tml no more fyp.. actually after my presentation on sat, i was on hol mood le. haha. think i din perform as well as i expected for myself but don care liao. it has been so many months since i stone, so many months since i last watch tv few hours at one go, so many months since i last went shopping, n so many months since i don hav that heavy stone in me making me lost all the energy to laugh with all my heart.

the old me is BACK!! like a spell i've been under for months, at last its lifted. i feel alive again. Is this the type of fairy tale in this modern era? anyway, i feel happy. i am happy. I still hav a few tests before my final finals exam coming soon, ya ard that corner again. but i don care. this few days are for recharging!!! yipee~

i feel liberated again! Haha, i tot it will be so hard to wait till this day.. so glad that all the horrid stuff are over for now...

FYP was a learning exp. i would say that the learning curve was quite steep. for blur ppl like me, who like to add extra stones ahead of myself, so that i can trip upon later, life was harder. but realli, i tink all of us hav matured over this 9 months.. the bond we forged over ac fyp kids' club is something to be treasured.

This is the week..

if i survived this week well, i think i have attained another level..

There's no lack of challenges in life.. they are all just round that corner.

Lin

i dreamt of my prof again last nite. Dreamt had he sent me an email saying that my poster got prob... oh man... when will this end.. he cant even let me hav a good, peaceful sleep...

recently, i've been very tired. physically and mentally. last nite i went to bed at 11.15. mum even suggested that maybe i shld go do a blood test to see whats wrong. hmm, no need la ah. needles = pain.

Trust a pharmacist to say that. tsktsk..

cant believe i'm gg to be a pharmacist soon. How many lifes will be in my hands that i hav to protect. woohoo.. glad that i'm becoming one. Will do good for the society. i promise. :)

When one becomes too busy with everything, everything seems to glazed past. Nothing seems important. I hate it tat i am taking IMPORTANT THINGS so UNIMPORTANTLY.

I wan to stop and take check. I cant. I know i hav been missing out a lot of life. I wan to laugh like before again, i cant. I wan to find back wats important to me. My life, my friends, my cup of Starbucks coffee, but i cant. I cant even rmb the time i last sat down for coffee with a small grp of friends discussing life. i don even hav time to catch a breath and the wind just forcefully push me forward.

somethings i noe after its missed, you cant get it back. The feeling is no longer there. i know. Women's sixth sense is not there for without a purpose.

when i wan to lament, i dunno who to go to. Everyone has their own set of frustration which i don wish to add on. I can imagine myself lament.. things are so gross that i actually don feel like mentioning.. but u noe, when you don say, it jus keep gnawing ur insides..

I think my blog has become too pessimistic to read. If it is, read my older posts instead, i think they may b happier.

actually, i think my table of friends all hav this kind of feeling which has escalated this semester.. i wonder whether anyone wrote bout it? Did anyone talked about it?

maybe its wat fyp did to me,
maybe its coz i'm in yr 4 last sem alreadi
i think i m more kan de kai..
i m more shui bian.. more slack n less demanding on myself
i reach self-equilbrium within a shorter time..
i think this is bad..
its tis kind of mindset that makes ppl complacent with the veri least they hav.
mayb i shld change,
mayb i will change.
after fyp..


PS: med counseling tml.. can b quite jialat kind. tdy then seriously start studying. usually will start early. but tdy slack till night night then start.. now notes in front of me, i m blogging. still got 2 entries.. you tell me la. hahaha... omg. m i the hui lin u know?? i wonder?

In my 4 yrs of tertiary education, today is the last prac of the entire course.. made pellet coating today... veri fun, jus like home econs and arts where we mix our own colour to coat our pellets and pack into capsules.

Probably the last prac in my life, friends n i forget to take a proper picture. should hav. wasted. lucky last time got take a few.. haha. fun pracs i had in this 4 yrs.. got usual titration, also got more specialised ones like tdy's tab coating and dosage form prep...

hmm actually i still hav med counseling coming up x 4 weeks. done in lab also but its not hand-on get dirty kind. hmm.. that is the challenging part..

2 more weeks... its all gonna be over!!!!!! April april quick come come!!

Brief update

1) I have handed in my final thesis

2) By the 1st April, everything to do with FYP will be settled (hopefully). thats the official date. but there may be unofficial stuff...

3) I am gg TAIWAN!!! Booked tickets. Going w 9 other friends. Free n Easy

4) Planning is not easy... but fun! :)

5) I got my job!!! actually it was quite some time le.. just din manage to spread the news.. to all who is graduating and haven gotten a job, jiayou!! The industry wants you!! don worry! tough outside, but u'll find ur place :)

6) My stress level is cyclical. Now is the trough, so i'm normal, for now.

7) I wan to slack. i miss stoning and slacking away my time

so fast, its march alreadi... so busy nowadays... veri draining... one week have past... i m onli halfway up this steep mountain... jiayou. i can do it...

mental strong, body weak?
body strong, mental weak?
aiya watever.....
jus quickly get it done..